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2007-01-04T15:58:00.000+08:00

Hi all,

Thank you so much for dropping by all these while.

I'm sorry if I've disappoint you time and again, because I didn't have time to blog...

Read more with updates from my new blog address: www.rachel-yingjie.blogspot.com

Take care.
God Bless & Blessed 2007 ahead!

Cheers!

Super sad... so pls... SMS me...

2006-08-07T17:41:00.000+08:00

Dear all,

I had to change my SIM card due to some problems. Of which, I have lost ALL my SMS and MOST of my contact numbers.

It would be very very appreciative if you can kindly send me an SMS, telling me who are you, so I am able to store your numbers.

My number still remains as before... - 918*****

Thanks a Billion!

Super sad,
rachel

My updates on this unupdated boring blog...

2006-03-05T20:25:00.000+08:00

It has been so extremely long,
since I last proper blogged.

Thought that I should blog some updates,
otherwise it wouldn't be fair for those who have been faithfully dropping by and yet seeing nothing new.

I have been so busy these days,
not just with school work;
but also with 2 companies/ 3 Productions (in hand, excluding NAFA's Productions) that i'm working for.

I didn't look for it, but they came to me...
Though I have to juggle both school and work;
I always believe that such experiences cannot be bought and opportunities and network that I may missed.

It was only my last Production, that made me realised how important network was.
In the past, I may heard of it many times, but didn't realise how impt it would be.

It might be tiring, but I always believe that God will always be there for me.

I must also admit that life hasn't been easy, especially my spiritual walk.
I always pray for the rope to be pulled back by Him quickly...
but... I know everything takes time.

For now, I hope this is fine, I'll find time to update more.
And I really appreciate those who have been dropping by, this, unupdated boring blog.

God Bless! =)

Love,
Rachel

PENG! Thank you so much! =)

2006-01-06T21:48:00.000+08:00

Oh man! I’m super happy last night… Though we are in 2006 now… I finally managed to open one of my birthday present from Peng!!!!

I couldn’t open it since she gave it to me last year (21st Dec 2005) as my com was unable to open it… don’t know why… but recently the com problems was resolved!!! =)

It is a 5:48 min movie...or rather slides of my photos from 2001 – 2005, my English tuition with her, to graduation day in SHSS, my church, devotions to God, my life in NAFA… then their messages…

The best part was not only the messages came from Peng and Berry; it includes Kor (Hong Meng), Tzin Mun, Horng Ann, Fu Shun and best… BRIAN!!! Gosh…. This is so cool man… though I didn’t managed to open it earlier on; this was still my best birthday present for 2005…

I listened and watched it for more from 22:45hr last night till… 03:15hr this morning… Gosh! I just love it so extremely much!!!

Peng…. THANK YOU SOSOSOOSOSOSOSOSO MUCH!!! Thank you so much for the cookie too… actually took 1.5 hr to admire and finished up the cookie on that very hour of 22nd October 2005! =) You are super sweet this time… really… I am super super touched… even when you gave me the flower on the last day of Bao Lian Deng! Gosh! Peng… you have improved tremendously!!!! I love you sosososoosososososososo much!!

I don’t know what more to say, cause I am super touched and happy that I have not only got you as my best friend, but also my spouse… I really really really thank God so much for you… thank you Peng… I love you LOTS!!! *Hugs* =)

GOD!!!!!!

2006-01-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

Gosh! I am seeing Chinese words for this site... (when I am blogging this). Ok nvm... How can this be???????

My sincere apologise that I haven't been blogging... yes, i know, it's been like more than a mth, going to 1.5 mths i guess...

Again... I was so busy, mentally, physically, spiritually shug! Tired...

June will know what i mean... (She saw me working, while she was doing her duties...)

Did 2 production work during the vacation...

Certain aspect of life became different...
Got to know new people... new people got into my life...

Many many more happened...
I wished all I want to share to be recorded automically into my blog (Ya, I wish....)

I promise to blog when I can... actually holding on 4 Projects/ "projects" in hand... one to be due in Feb, one in May, one for abt another one year, and the last one... ask God... (for the period of time i mean)

Anyways... i really really apprecaite those who still drop by my blog though it has been "dead" for sosososososso long... Thank you so much!

Al'right... take care for now... will get back real.... soon............................ (I hope)

GOD... PICK ME UP AGAIN... I CAN'T LIVE WITH MY OWN STRENGTH.... I NEED YOUR GUIDANCE, WISDOM, POWER...

EMPOWER ME LORD... EMPOWER ME....

You got to be strong... We are always here for you... Hugs

2005-11-22T22:44:00.000+08:00

SPECIALLY FOR: - You know who you are.

I'm glad you told us.

It's ok, that you didn't dare to talk to me when you heard me just now.

I did sense sth wrong...

But didn't know what exactly it was until you told him.

You sounded scared,

I know...

*hugs*

Don't cry ok?

I believe God does miracles.

Will keep your family in prayer...

Have more faith...

You got to be strong...

You must to be strong...

Do let us know if you need anything...

I'm always here... or rather...

We (your family) are always here...

24/7

Despite the long distance we are having now.

Don't be afraid to disturb us...

3am, 4am, 5am,

is just fine for us.

____, we (your family) love you...

We will always be by your side...

Love you lots, ____

*tight hug*

*wiped tears*

++++++

2005-11-13T22:00:00.000+08:00

There is so much that has had happened...

So much to say...

So much to share...

But I'm just too tired for anything...

Sorry...

God... What's your will?

2005-11-04T21:30:00.000+08:00

Dara, you and your boyfriend said,

"Give it a try..."

Peng, you said,

"I don't know you la...

You better think carefully..."

Trina, you said,

"Why not?

You might not know what God's plan,

but it might be through this you could change ___ and see ___ getting closer to Him, right?"

GOD!!! What's your will?

I have been holding back till this day...

My heart still awaits for you...

But things are so far apart...

And I always wonder what's in your mind...

I really wish to know...

It's been so long since we have had a proper conversation.

Going to a year now I guess...

Why are you treating me this way and end up coming to me and say you are sorry?

What's in your mind?

I really want to know...

It doesn't matter if it's a negative say...

I really don't mind...

Peng:

I seems to be in a similar situation as you were...

Those questions I shoot you and FS, I asked myself many times too...

I'm someone who thinks very far, like you; I guess.

I remember telling you that life is a journey, a journey of of learning, a journey of experience...

Remember that SMS, I sent you?

*wee smile*

It's still in my mobile.

"He has been putting in effort... I can tell. Give it a try, afterall everyday, every step is an experience & a learning journey! And remember, we only live once!"

It's going to be a year soon, since it happened...

Gone through quite a number of applicants,

but all rejected.

I'm sorry.

I've been praying everyday,

for a year now...

Somehow I know the answer,

but somehow it just seems so uncertain.

Maybe the testing is running...

The test of faith...

The test of trust...

The test of righteousness...

GOD?Should I go ahead?

But I don't want to be a selfish girl...

And I also want to be a righteous sheep of Yours,

One that I can testify and show my kids next time...

Lord, You know my heart...

You know every single thing...

Every single move...

Every single thought...

Tell me...

Tell me what's your will?

You SHOULDN'T be sitting here...

2005-11-02T20:35:00.000+08:00

Okay...

Exams started...
I should be studying...
Why am I sitting here?

Daddy is out station...
Wonder how is he now...
Guess he must be enjoying the cold weather over there...

Gracious is at home...
Having Chicken poxs...
Poor little girl.

Rebecca has started her vacations...
Slacking at home...
Like a________ potato!

Me?
Supposerly to be sitting infront of my study desk...
Practicing my accounts...

Sigh...
Rachel Rachel Rachel...

GO STUDY!!!!!

The cup seems empty...

2005-10-29T17:15:00.000+08:00

I don't know who am I to you,
what am I to you...
a friend, a foe or even a stranger.

Even being friends with you,
seems so hard.
What more being together?
I wonder.

Those efforts I've put in,
seems unappreciated.
Those moments I've thought,
were merely clouds that flown by.
Those times I've sacrificed,
I wonder...
sigh.
Nevermind.

It wasn't just one time,
that you broke my heart.
It wasn't just one moment,
you were rude or impolite.
It wasn't just one period,
you treated me so bad.
(That's what you even said)

Sometimes I just wonder if you're worth my love,
some said, "Yes"
some said, "No"
some said, "I'm just too nice..."

But to you,
I seems to be just a cup
filled with nothing;
not even a single drop of water
I guess.

Loving you.
Hating you.
I really don't know,
who am I to you.

The only thing I looked forward on my birthday
was just a word of SMS or call from you,
nothing else.
But sadly,
I've got nothing.

I don't expect any presents from you,
my friends or my family.
But all along,
I was just hoping you would say something nice that very day.

It's been a week now,
hoping you'ld say,
"Happy belated birthday..."
Hearing this, even now,
it's already good enough...
I don't ask for more...
But sadly...
I've got nothing.

"It's ok!"
I told myself...

I've already even prepared your birthday card,
waiting for the nearing date...
I would still post it.

You might say you are busy,
you've Assessments...
Well...
so do I.

Even Brian remembers,
I don't see why can't you...

You have greatly disappoint me,
not just this once...

I really don't know what more to say
I'm tired.
I really do...

Anyway,
take care...

Love,
Rachel

http://www.fatlyrics.com/lyrics/1434/Rooster/Deep_And_Meaningless

I thank God for these 19 years...

2005-10-29T16:50:00.000+08:00

(Okay... it's been so long since I blog...)

I thank God for these 19 years He has brought me through... all the ups and downs...
I thank God for all the friends, I've made...
I thank God for who am I...
I thank God for making me, Me! =)

I thank God for the wonderful friends, I've in school...
I thank God for the humourous brothers & sisters I've in church...
I thank God for the full family I've at home...
I thank God for all the wonderful memories He has provided...
I thank God for those who remembered...
I thank God for all He has created...
I thank God SO MUCH for having you (each and everyone of you) in my life...

Thank you peeps, for remembing my 19th birthday...
And wishing me....
All of you are such a blessing! =)

Rebecca Chan
Mark
Shirley
Wei Lin
Aunt Caroline
Trina
Christine Puah
Harppi
Darryl
Suhaimi
Julia Leow
Titus
Zhang Jian
Emilia
Dara
Nuurul
Ben Tan
June
AiWei
Nicole
Zhi Wei (Church)
Brian
Jia Wei
Horng Ann
Nur
Qi Jie
Wei Qi
Devina
Mrs Peh
Hong Meng
Fei Wu
Christine Lam
Er Yi
Devina
Wen Fong
Tzin Mun
Sunjie
Berry
Gina (Church)
Priscilla Goh
Fu Shun
Shwu Hui
PriscillaTay
Peng
Edna
Big Ben
Mimi
Polo
Chen Fei
Xu Hua
Joze
Aunt Siew Hiang
My Class...
Techlight Ministry...
My Family...

At home, at that hour 00:00hr: http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2118652840&code=18979150&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite
In Church (231005): http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2118399552&code=18979149&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite
In School (241005): http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2118400175&amp;amp;code=18979133&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite

Back dated entry!

2005-10-21T22:40:00.000+08:00

Day/ Date/ Time: Thursday/ 20th Oct 2005/ 2343hr

Oh man! So many things just fall in place today, though I almost gone crazy with Photoshop! I mean... I smiled alot, alot today... (although my brain is also exploding!!!) *Gosh*

Lord! THANK YOU!! =)

I've got no time to blog, but because of those smiles I've gotten today(after Darryl's phone call), I shall take some time to blog... so here I'm "blogging" in Notepad (cause can't use net now)!

Just received a call from Darryl!! Really surprsied to see his name appearing when it rang! *Gosh* He wished me "Happy Birthday..." though he mistaken that it was today! I mean, we were so close for 3 years in sec sch, but didn't talk much after we left sec sch and entered different insituation... Though it was just four minutes on the phone, it just meant so much to already! Thanks Darryl! Miss you lots too! =)

Peng: Thanks for calling him... (he told me) =)

Okay.. it wasn't just his call that made me smile more, it was also... er... I called Starhub to check some IDD calling thing 1st then called over to er... Shanghai...

Made a testing call over... then yup! Haha... 15 mintues later... I called again! (Ya, you guys might think I'm crazy! Haha... Okay... only those who with me know abt this: Trina, Xu Hau, then later came Chen Fei) Ya... I scare him...!!! (Evil Rachel!)

Trina and I then had a short talk regarding this matter. Half way through class, saw her kept smiling, I ask her why? Then she said, "I'm happy to see you being so happy..." *Gosh!*

Trina: Thank you! Thank you too for the sms...! Continue to pray abt those matters, I believe He has sth great for you up there! Life is a learning journey... trusting Him is just like walking on a vast patch of grass, you will never know when you'll step on dog shit... you will only know when you stepped on it... then from there, you pick up a point and know which route you should take when you walk on the grass patch again! (That's what I've learn and always tell myself whenever I walk to school, cutting through the vast patch of grass opp PARCO!)

Ookay.. What's next?

I was doing Photoshop (for web centric module) in school with Trina with the help of Xu Hau till 8 plus PM... Redo the whole thing... (haven't fininsh though... sigh) and almost drove me nuts! (I'm a software nerd!) Got stuck in some areas and end up calling Horng Ann, hoping he is near my sch area, but think he wasn't... so called QiJie, hoping he is still in sch so he can solve my queries... and thank God, he was! Qi Jie, Thanks... =) Wanted to call Themis though, but guess even if he's in sch, I know that he won't come and take a look... sigh, ok nvm...

Then came an sms... from far far away... haha... yup! Replied! =)

Haha... Okay... enough! Back to work! Going to burn the oil again tonight... Ciao! =)

Lord, thank you so much... =)

2005-10-16T18:20:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since I felt it...

Sitting around with more than 10 of my cell memebers for lunch after Speedlight (Youth svc), after so long... more than 2 mths (I think), the feeling is so great! I loved and missed fellowshipping with them...

Some photos: http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2119000950&code=18765460&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite

Re-dedicated my life to Him after Brother Sam preached just now... Crying out to Him helps to lift the heavy heart I had. I wouldn't say it will be gone totally but at least I walked out with a lighter heart and a more focus mind. Feeling more refresh too! Amen! =P

God dry tears too... didn't have a single tissue paper with me, and lots my tears just flow down, kneeing down at the alter, seeking Him with my body feeling so cold (air-con + it was raining outside)... little did I know, the next min after I felt slightly comforted, my face was dry, really dry... =)

Okay... have a victorious week ahead pple!
Cya! =)

In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name.

~ Psalm 33:21

Staying out late...

2005-10-10T19:30:00.000+08:00

Finally...

Woke up at 5 plus PM, just now... and it seems like morning to me... (maybe due to the weather)... practically slept for 12 hours... reached home at 4.30 AM. (Ya! What a rare chance I've to hang out late till the morning at abt 4 plus AM)

Yesterday was the last day of BLD (Bao Lian Deng)... bump-out till abt 1plus AM. Zhang Jian, Sun Jie, Dara, Ma Yi and I walked ti the coffee shop near old NAFA, sat there and talked for a while and decided to go the Newton Hawker Centre to eat, but sigh... took a cab there but it was closed... Proceeded to Lau Pau Sat...

Chilled together, they (Zhang Jian, Sun Jie and Dara) drank beer... and omg... at a certain point, we thought Dara was drunk... haha... and Sunjie's face, neck, eyes were like ALL red can! So scary!! Haha.. ok, to me at least though...

Ordered satays and chicken wings...

After supper or should I say, dinner? Haha... We walked to Singapore River, near Esplanade... We did really crazy stuffs there... it was so fun!! Thanks bao bei, Dara!! Love you lots too! =)

At a certain point, Sunjie wanted to swim in the river... he took off his socks, shoes and folded up his pants... hahaha.. (Ya! Almost took out his shirt!!) Haha...

The whole atmosphere was like so wonderful... so many stars in the sky too, so few vehicles and nice breeze... Oh man... the feeling is like so good...

Dara and I took flowers from those given boxes of flowers... dont' know what's that call la... haha... and form a bouqet ourselves... gave a bouquet of 2 pink and orange daisy to a tourist cause she commented that thsoe flowers were so beautiful... haha...

Oh! Did I mention Jack Neo was there too? Yup! He was seated at the 1st row with his family I think... Haha... and some Minister went too... I think it was the Minister for the Arts...

Peng, my husband... melted my heart last night too... during evening, as I was walking down to the stage and she walking up to the control room, we met each other and I thought FS bought her the stalk of orange daisy... but after the show, she put it in my bag with a short note saying that it was for me... I was like... "Aw..."

Ya... I know... Rachel is crazy... !! "It's like just ONE stalk of orange daisy, without any wrapping and with just cotton wool and aluminum foil below..." Haha...

Oh man... Peng, you are so sweet, I was telling my friends that this is the 1st time in 4 years you melted my heart... (I didn't cry though)... cause usually I am the one giving them to you... Oh man... Thanks Peng! I love you...

*Photos will be up soon...

The Day, a year back...

2005-10-04T00:02:00.000+08:00

Time passes so fast,
it could have been a year today.
You once sang the song,
'You are my sunshine'
on this very day.

I still remember,
you started off by sending an sms,
to a friend,asking the lyrics of it;
accidentally, you sent it to me.

Much things have changed,
I guess...
You
Me.

There's so much I want to tell you,
I can't.
So much I want to share with you,
I can't.

Many times, I looked back,
tears just flow.

I always wonder,
asking Him...
when will be the time.

I know "Trusting",
is what you gonna say;
I know...

But for now and this day,
I just want to say,
"One hundred and thirty-five",
if you remember what it says.

It's also still remains,
One hundred and twenty-five,
even till this very day...

"You are my sunshine my only sunshine,
you make me happy when skies are gray.
You'll never know dear how much I love you,
Please don't take my sunshine away..."

The Song: http://www.niehs.nih.gov/kids/lyrics/sunshine.htm

What a Great Start of the Day! =)

2005-10-02T11:20:00.000+08:00

OKay... at this hour, I shouldn't be at home, instead, I should be at either church or cell...

OKay... nvm, let me tell u a story then you will know why...

Once upon a time...

There is this little petite girl named, Rachel. She woke up this very morning and prepared herself for church. Excitingly and not wanting to be late, she left house at the same time as her Mum... They walked different ways when they reached downstairs. After walking for quite a few steps, Rachel realised sth... SHE HAS FORGOTTEN HER SPECTACLES... *Gosh* she can't live w/o her specs, as she is very used to having it... she has Short-sigtedness and Astigmatism... more of Asti, meaning when she sees lights, it doesn't appear sharp, but instead blur...

She walked back... took the lift up and reached her door step... no one is at home, thus she digged her keys in her green strawed bag... and guess what?

(Yup... maybe you are right...)

She has also forgotten to bring her HOUSE KEYS... Sigh... she called her Mum, but her Mum can't help her as they were on PIE, on the way to church... Rachel can't call her sister as she (her sister) didn't bring her hp... Hence, left with no choice, she troubled her Grandma... (Thank God she has a spare key) Told her to reached my house abt 10.45 to 11am...

Okay... so forgetful little Rachel, went to church with a blur vission... Couldn't concentrate during sermon as everything seems so bright to her... the lights.... the screen... everything...

Despite of that, she went ahead receiving the anoiting Power of God... Amen! =)
Service ended early and went back home... Yup! Grandma was at her place already...

SO! Rachel now live happily ever after with her lovely purple glasses...

Haha... what a great start Rachel have had...!!! Haha...

Okay... going to get a bite and leave house soon to meet "Sauage Macmuffin" for Prodcution/ Rehearsal and my husband (to pass "him" sth) later... Yuppi! Haha... (Peng! Don't laugh...) Haha..

And oh! Did I mention before that I'm married after 4 years? I've got a ring!! (But... this ring, my spouse made me pay myself... sigh... isn't "he" suppose to be the one paying? Haha.. but it's ok... "he" let me choose.. Haha...) It all happen on 9th August, National Day this year... (Haha... ok... no more story!) Heh...

Okay... Ciao! Have a victorious week ahead pple! Same to me (hopefully!)... as this week is my BIG week... The commences of the Production - 7th to 9th @ Lee Foundation Theatre... 'Bao Lian Deng'.

=)

We seems so far, but I really thank God for you... =)

2005-10-01T22:45:00.000+08:00

Oh man... just got my 1st birthday greetings from Rebecca (SHSS)... So touched! Really... I mean.. once in a while or rather every mth, she will sms me a forward sms of friendship and stuffs... it is like wow. cause we aren't close at all, not even in sec sch or now, but she still keep me in touch.. wow...

So touched because she will be leaving for UK on Mon, for a mth and said she won't be able to wish me then, I was like... oh man.. that's really so sweet of her... I remembered 2 years ago when before I left for GuangZhou with my Dad, I prepared 2 presents. One for Wai Peng (send to her by post) and one for my Uncle/ Aunt. As I will only be back on Christmas night, and Peng's birthday is on Christmas eve, and for my Unlce/ Aunt, it's their Christmas present, sth which I made... Seeing them smile with such surprised I did, makes me really happy too... the feeling that Rebecca gave me is like more of what I give out...

Though it's just a simple sms, but to me... it's just touches my heart so much...

Oh man... till now my heart just melt, ya though, it's just a birthday greeting from her, (you may think) but to me it just meant so much...

Rebecca, thank you so much... =)

The heavy heart I was having...

2005-09-24T14:30:00.000+08:00

Was having a heavy heart yesterday... as much as I was hurt... I just can't cry it out...

Did my QT and only then, I poured it out... I prayed for comfort, forgiveness, and a good rest... I slept peacefully for 11 hours without thinking much abt that matter...

I don't know what have I been doing for the past 1 mth... though I know it's wrong, but why did I do it?

After I poured out last night and after so long, I flipped open my Bible and God spoke to me immediately after what I prayed for... he brought me to Luke 17 - Sin, Faith, Duty.

1Jesus said to his disciples: "Things that cause people to sin are bound to come, but woe to that person through whom they come. 2It would be better for him to be thrown into the sea with a millstone tied around his neck than for him to cause one of these little ones to sin. 3So watch yourselves. "If your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him. 4If he sins against you seven times in a day, and seven times comes back to you and says, 'I repent,' forgive him."
5The apostles said to the Lord, "Increase our faith!"
6He replied, "If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you.
7"Suppose one of you had a servant plowing or looking after the sheep. Would he say to the servant when he comes in from the field, 'Come along now and sit down to eat'? 8Would he not rather say, 'Prepare my supper, get yourself ready and wait on me while I eat and drink; after that you may eat and drink'? 9Would he thank the servant because he did what he was told to do? 10So you also, when you have done everything you were told to do, should say, 'We are unworthy servants; we have only done our duty.' "

I was touched... I was comforted, not totally, but at least slightly, coming back to Him, it's a joy... but drifting away is a hurt...

Restless... [rachel]

2005-09-22T12:45:00.000+08:00

Don't know how to start... just changed my blog music... don't feel like going to sch... I'm just so restless... sigh...

Had my netball semi-final match on Mon... we lost to Chicken Run. I would say both teams were very strong and sadly, we also have has a lousy ampire... (Nic even went to ask if she can ampire the other side also...)

During our match, a few of us were injured. I hurt myself too... both my knees, my left arm, left hand, left waist and my left breast! (Haha) Everything seems to be LEFT! Sigh...

Peng: STOP LAUGHING!!!

This time, Nope, the ball didn't hit me, but instead I hit the ground... Regine said she heard a loud hit! Well... I'm on the way to recovery I guess...

Dawn called me up yesterday asking me to play for the staff match tmr with the winning team... Trina is in too...

I don't want to go to school... I don't want to walk that long route... I don't want to do ANYTHING!!!!!!

Anyway, today's Mum's birthday! And in exactly a month's time, it would be mine! I don't seems to have any mood, be it hers or mine... or should I say, it's always been the case for me? Ha!

Okay... going to get ready for sch... disliking school at the moment... I don't know why... Sigh..

Ok... Ciao! =(

Don't talk to [rachel]

2005-09-19T15:55:00.000+08:00

So much things in my mind that I want to say, I can't, it's not the time...

So much things I need to get it done, I don't want to do, I'm extremely restless...

I wish the time is now, so I can say them all out and lift up the burden I'm having...

I wish I am more enegetic in my mind...

But things just doesn't goes as I wished...

Sigh.........

At the same time, I'm extremely confused... don't ask me what... cause there is just so much.

Don't talk to [rachel] - she is very restless - she wouldn't have the right mood in answering you - she might pissed you off - and you might feel being treated unreasonably...

GOD!!!

*tears shed in my heart*

*kneeling down before you, seeking you*

* Had a netball match last Sat @ Kallang Netball Centre, Praise God... we won! scoring 12-10.
* Going for semi finals later @ 7pm... Ok... God continue to bless our team! Amen!

Lord, I need You...

2005-09-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

Life now for me seems to be different, I felt so far away from Him, I'm feeling so restless, so sick and tired ('sian') of everything...

I don't want to do anything, I don't want to do my work, all my projects due dates seems to draw nearer and nearer each day, each moment, each second... but here am I, not wanting to do anything... God, why?

Was hanging around TM a few days ago myself.. somehow I really enjoy hanging around alone... Walked into the Life Bookshop, spent quite some time there, thinking abt my relationship with Him...

I looked at the books and audio materials on the shelves; listened to the music played in the shop... just made me thought further...

After much time spent, I wanted to buy a cd, it's either 'WOW 2005' or 'WOW Hits #1'... I took quite long to decide on which to buy... but in the end I didn't. While I was abt to make my payment, something catch my attention... A chinese CD... from Breakthrough Mission - A Christian Drug Rehabilitation Centre.

I took it, I went to play on the player, it just hit me so much, I mean it's isn't just the tune, but also the words, It made me thought even further on the wonderfuls things He put me through... I didn't think (to decide) as long as I took for the 2 cds. I put back those 2 English CDs, and bought the Chinese one.. (I don't know why am I so into Chinese now.. so is that good or bad?
Haha...)

This current song which is playing in my blog is one of those songs I like from the CD. **Especially the Chorus (Listen to the
words carefully) - "Jesus said, I'm the light..."

In this CD, there are also 3 powerful testiomonials that made me thought of my relationship with Him again, which brought tears in my eyes, I mean... ya, I admit, my relationship with Him has drifted... It kind of sadden me alot, esp so much has happened to me these few mths - School, Productions and Personal stuffs... I really need lots of prayers... I do.

I am so tired of everything, but Lord, bring me back to the right path again. I'm really sorry for all that I've did. Things that are unglorify to Your name, things that are not right. Forgive me Lord, for I'm a sinner... Take away those hurts I have, those tears I shed were and are really painful. Only You know me most, know me well, it's not even my friends/ close friends. No one knows what exactly happened/ happening to me, except You. Lord, I'm still very hurt... guide me Lord... I really need You, Your guidance, Your wisdom, Your protection... Everything....

MTV Filming! =)

2005-09-10T22:05:00.000+08:00

Was involved in a MTV Filming recently (7th & 8th Spet), besides the currently Theare Production that I am doing - Bao Lian Deng!

This MTV Filming is by New Song Production Company. Was pulled in by Zhang Jian, Director, and asking me to be his Director Assistant.
Honestly, I really want to thank God for him. He was the one to gave me lots of productions exposure. Experiencing things that I didn't expect in life. It has been a great time working with him so far, despite him "bullying" me at times. I have learnt a lot, and met real working life people, for example - Lim Boon Chuan, a local news reporter for Lian He Wan Bao.

This MTV is for a Centre named 'Love & Unity', headed by Chairman - Tommy Yu. A centre for the old folks. Tommy Yu appeared in the newspaper sereval times talking abt him helping the old folks and paying funerals rites out from his own pocket.

Went to a few places to not only take photos, but also video shots. Places like, Changi Beach, Shenton Way, Mei Ling Street & Bukit Merah. and places like Redhill and Bukit Batok were cancelled.

The main artist in this MTV is a Malaysian - Fang Mei Zhuang, 24 years old.I like this song sang by her, and I'm refering more of the melody. Yup! (No offence)
www.fangmeizhuang.com

This album will be out soon! Interested, let me know! Will give you one! Haha!! =)
And oh! Did I mention that I appear in a photo at the start of this album! Heh... cause Zhang Jian needed someone, thus he asked me to be a "customer". Yup! Spot me when it's out!
Okay... Enjoy the current music in my blog now! It's the theme song in this MTV Filming!

Ciao! ;)

Click links to view photos taken on both days! =)
Day 1, 070905 (Wed) - http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2121050641&amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;code=18175981&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite
Day 2, 080905 (Thurs) - http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2120981523&amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;code=18175980&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite

A joint-effort charity project by:
Mzee Fong, Champion of Media Corp TV Singing Competition (word & sing)
Wen Wen, Winner of National University of Singapore Song Writing Contest (melody)
Love & Unity Theme Song Music Video

Love & Unity

一年三百六十五天
我送你三百六十五个祝福
每天都要快快乐乐
每一分钟都盼望你平平安安
将我心比你心
敬上关怀与爱心
将我心比你心
世界变得更温馨
团结心团结力
众人栽树树成林
爱心团结生命变得更丰盈
团结情团结意
众人拾柴火焰高爱心团结力量变得更强大

CREDITS
Project Production: New Song Entertainment Pte Ltd
Executive Producer: Vincent Ong
Production Planner: Lim Boon Chuan
Music Adviser : Li Yi
Panel of Advisers: Tommy Yu, Olivia Chua, Jereme Jin
MV Director : Zhang Jian, Ken
Director Assistant: Rachel Tan Ying Jie
MV Cameramen: Ong Teck Lee & Team
Cover Designer : Averill Phua

Cover Photographer: Mr & Miss Wedding Club

Tic Tac Tone!

2005-09-10T19:25:00.000+08:00

Went to cut film with Zhang Jian yesterday at CHOA CHU KANG! Or rather to "make"/ "form" the MTV with the camera man!!

(Did you notice, I have been travelling to the West lately? Haha)
Then met up with Berry to watch a Acappalle group at Esplande - Tic Tac Tone.
www.tictactone.com

It's $21 and supposely to watch with Dara, but last min she got to do a production as Esplanade, thus got Berry to watch. Amazingly, guess what Berry said, even during half of the show... "It's rocks!" Haha! Kinda surprised! Glad to hear that she enjoyed herself too.

Then on my way home, Joanna called! Really glad to her from her after so long - my absence in Cell, due to production; despite me going for morning service before my production.

Updated me on some cell matters...and to Zhi Wei (CL):
"If you're reading this, I want to tell you that, you are such a faithful servant of God! Despite those rituals your family members wanted you to do during the furneral, you've honured Him by not letting Him down. I'm proud of you and you are a good role model for us. I'm sorry to hear the passing of your Grandfather. May my deepest condolences be with both your family members and you. Continue to stay strong in His words, for His words are the lamp unto out feet, and a lamp unto our paths. Take care and God bless!"

WHAT A GREAT DAY I/ WE HAD!

2005-09-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

I WILL DIE ONEDAY,

AND THE DAY IS VERY NEAR...

I'LL DIE IN HER HANDS,

OR MAYEB INFRONT OF HER!

I'm taught to forgive and forget,
I'm always so patient with her,
but what I got in the end?
SHIT!

In the past: Disapointment< Anger
Now: Disappointment > Anger!

Had a extremely bad day! She didn't even come up to us and say a word of, "Sorry" or "Thank you", all she did was reading her BLOODY STORYBOOK! (Sorry to readers, if I sound rude, but ya, Nic and I WERE and ARE freaking boiling high on fire!

I dont' want to mention anymore... both Nic and I had a horrible day, and our WORST presentation we ever did!

Crazy Happenings of the day!

2005-09-03T21:55:00.000+08:00

Heya! Dara and I slept at 3 plus this morning and woke up at abt 6 plus am. Went to school for some filming for Medicorp, and supposely from 8.30am to 7pm. But... Dara was late, and I waited for her, thus both of us were late for abt 15 mins, and thus we didn't go and have our attendance taken.

The two of us looked at what's happening instead of being involved! Ha! Pple thought we were just passer-bys, but actually we aren't! Saw Jenettee Ow (don't know hwo to spell. Ha!).

Later on, a China student talked to us and ask us why not we don't go over and join the rest. It was a break at that time. Then later on, he asked which course are we at. I replied, "Arts Mgt" in Mandrain, and HA! Guess what he said?! "Which part of China do I come from?" Haha...

It's not my face, but I think was my accent?! Haha! (Emilia said taht too!) Haha!! Have been like speaking lots of Mandrain (no choice) to many performers from China during my Production! Ha... Rachel's mandrain is improving? Haha! (Berry: The fake China girl!)

Saw Min Jing, a dancer from Laselle and from the Production - Bao Lian Deng. And sigh.. HE IS PAID $200 for dancing as extras in the filming, for 2 days!

End up instead of being filmed. We took photos of ourselves and surroundings. Even when a Yellow car stop by, we took photos together with that. We left about 10 plus, as we felt unless? Haha... Then went to Esplanade, and that was like only 10 plus AM in the morning! Spent some time there and the library (to do my research), then psycho Dara to Joo Chiat to eat beef noodles! Haha... was so tired, almost fell asleep in the train! Ha!

Haha.. we did so many crazy things, especially me I think! Haha... (maybe due to lack of slp! Ha!)

Okay... enough... and got a news from Zhang Jian (SM) just now that Dara and I got to be at Choa Chu Kang, Nan Shan Primary School tomorrow for Production (Rehearsal) at 1pm! Gosh! That's like... SO FAR!!! (Okay, nvm I shoudn't complain, afterall Singapore is so small?) Ha!

OKay.. I better think of sth to do (maybe slp), when I make my long journey in the train, to the WEST tomorrow, ALONE!

Ciao!

Click on link for CRAZY HAPPENINGS! =)

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2121301024&code=18049399&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite

Want to experience what's behind the scene? Read this!

2005-09-01T18:10:00.000+08:00

Recruitment!

The current Production that I'm doing - Bao Lian Deng (A chinese children Musical, which consists of children dancers/ actors, NAFA & Laselle Students and Alumni) needs:

Stage crews - (10 person, preferably guys!)

Lighting Operators (Will teach you), - (3 person)

Ushers/ Front of House! - (3 to 4 person)

No experience needed! Meals provided!Experience Gain, which can't be bought!
Interested? Drop me a msg, or sms me! Thanks! =)

Dates needed: -

Bump-in Dates: 3rd Oct (Mon) - 6th Oct (Thurs)

Performance Dates: 7th Oct (Fri) - 9th Oct(Sun)

Location: NAFA - Lee Foundation Theatre

My lousy Photoshop skills!

2005-09-01T15:45:00.000+08:00

Collecting the performers and management team, pple's photo is part of my job, being an Assistant Stage Manager for this Bao Lian Deng production. These photos will be placed in the Program Booklet for this Musical.

Made Zhang Jian (Stage Manager) to smile, and guess this is the best photo taken of him! (since he has no photo to pass it to me) Edited using some of my lousy Photoshop skills and sigh... the results show below.

The original photo taken using my mobile!

I brighten it! (compare his shirt, to be more obvious)

I cropped it!

I took away the lady on his left and the man on his right (near his right ear there)

I took away the speaker on his top left!

And I clone the ceiling and covered the space under his sleeves on his right!

I balanced his shoulders! (It's not very nice still though, but sigh... that's the best I can provide - My lousy Photoshop skills!)

Rachel found herself a new BOYFRIEND?!

2005-08-31T21:50:00.000+08:00

Oh man! Can't believe this!

RACHEL FOUND HERSELF A NEW BOYFRIEND!!!???

*screams*

Gosh!!

He's like SO DARN CUTE!

Let me tell you how I met him!

Was at the Foodcourt yesterday; having dinner with Dara, before we went for Production! (Tampines Interchange - Eastlink)

Was eating half way, then kinda got his attention! He is like SO DARN CUTE la! Talked to him and guess he was happy too! He's really nice and DARN CUTE! ("Okay! Rachel! That's enough! STOP saying that he's DARN CUTE!" Ha! Guess you must be like scolding me? Haha!! Okay! Sorry...)

Dara even helped us to take some photos together! Argh! THANK YOU, DARA!! *Love you too man!* haha... OKay, back to my NEW BOYFRIEND!

Er... He is so CUTE la!

That's all I have to say!

;)

Click link to see MR. CUTE!

Gosh! Rachel is REALLY turning crazy!

Or rather, she is ALREADY crazy!

Ha!

Happy viewing!

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2121448983&code=18002202&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite

Rachel the busy girl? Ha! =)

2005-08-30T17:20:00.000+08:00

Talked with Trina in MSN just only, and one part of the conversation she asked, "How's you and *?" Ha! I replied this, which I think it kinda sounds cool! Ha! : (words in blue)

themomenteternal. trina. says:
hmm..hows u and *?
[rachel] + [productions] = [experience] that can't be bought! //www.rachwithpsalm139.blogspot.com says:
no progress, but well, guess GOd is making THE progress for us, in making no progress!
[rachel] + [productions] = [experience] that can't be bought! //www.rachwithpsalm139.blogspot.com says:
Ha!
rachel] + [productions] = [experience] that can't be bought! //www.rachwithpsalm139.blogspot.com says:
get it?
themomenteternal. trina. says:
hmm..yup.
themomenteternal. trina. says:
so nth is gg on la.
[rachel] + [productions] = [experience] that can't be bought! //www.rachwithpsalm139.blogspot.com says:
ya, NOTHING!
themomenteternal. trina. says:
hmm..pray abt it
[rachel] + [productions] = [experience] that can't be bought! //www.rachwithpsalm139.blogspot.com says:
yeah, PRAYING EVERYDAY!
[rachel] + [productions] = [experience] that can't be bought! //www.rachwithpsalm139.blogspot.com says:
ha
themomenteternal. trina. says:
but it must be God's will.

Ha! then later on, Trina asked me to tell her more about Christian Denomainations.. was kind glad she asked... I mean, it's sth part of this religion too, where i felt that she should know. In addition, she is a born again Christain this year in January! =)

Okay, should stop blogging for now. Going to prepare to meet Dara for dinner at Tampines at 6pm, then off we go to Bedok CC for our Production (Bao Lian Deng, An Adult & Children Chinese Musical, which is made up of apprx 60 dancers/actors)

It will be in theatre on the 7th October! Tickets at $25, $30, $35. (Kinda ex, I feel. But the whole performance I would say it's really good, especially the feel of it!)

Okay! Ciao! ;)

The man whom I recalled...

2005-08-27T12:42:00.000+08:00

Was in the train yesterday,

and was reminded of him.

Seated directly infront of me,

resembles so much like him.

Looking thin and tall,

crossing his legs exactly the way he did;

his hair,

his posture,

the way he looked at things,

made me thought further.

He doted me so much;

showered me with love, care and concern.

All, was indescribable.

I was always so shy to tell him,

I love him, and I appreciate everything.

But when the day came,

everything was just too late.

It was a Saturday night,

that we didn't made our way there - SGH

There were nurmerous lightings and thunders,

that stopped us from going.

I was 14 then,

and my sisters were nine and one.

I still remember clearly that, that night,

my mum prepared clothings (which looks more cheerful) for us to wear the next day,

and said, "We shall go tomorrow after church service together..."

The next morning came,

I was disturbed by some movements,

that woke me up.

As I was still in daze,

I opened my eyes for a split second

and saw my mum rushing out.

I didn't want to think much,

I went back to sleep.

When I woke up,

I wondered how come no one woke me up for church like they always did.

I walked to the living room,

I looked at my dad,

and he broke the news to me.

I couldn't take it,

I went to my room.

I broke down.

I missed him so much.

I didn't tell anyone, and all that I did was to ask Him,

"Why?"

Later on, my aunt told me that he has alraedy accepted Christ,

I felt slightly better, but not totally.

When I went to the funeral0,

I saw yellow coverage, instead of blue or white.

I broke down so badly again.

I questioned my aunt if she was lying to make me feel better.

I keep doubting her, and thought she was lying.

(For funerals, Buddist uses Yellow, while Christians uses White/Blue)

My aunt kept telling me:

"It's just a service, and what happens now, doesn't matter,

We know that he is back together with the Lord.

He's happy up there, and you will see him oneday...

Don't cry..."

The funeral service was a simple Buddist one,

which was requested by my other aunt and the family.

Afterall, he wasn't a strong Buddist,

and had a mind of his own.

At that point of time,

I really didn't know that Grandpa actually accepted Christ.

Believe or not, I doubted for more than a year.

But now I know...

he is back happily with the Lord.
It has been more than 5 years now,

since we lost him physically.

However, I know that he is enjoying life in heaven;

with angels singing around him.

It's just a temporary seperation,

though its for years;

but I know ultimately...we will meet again soon.

"Wai Gong (Grandpa), you should be having a great time now; with all the angels around you. Did you spot Mosses? David? Haha... Well, I'll join you oneday when my duties on earth are done!

Cya!"

Trusting... in Him

2005-08-26T02:35:00.000+08:00

RELATIONSHIP is tough, but I know you all can do it!

2005-08-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

BB: Kor, you have been through so much. I know. It wasn't just emotionally, but also physically, mentally and spiritually too. It wasn't easy for you, I know. Thank you so much for sharing with me. Your care and concern for me, I really appreacite it. Things between you and her aren't the same now, but Kor, you got to understand and learn that things are not always the way you want it to be. We got to be strong, we got to overcome things. God knows what's best for us, for we might not know and get the point now, but always remember that His plans are to prosper us and not to harm us.

Jeremiah 29:11 (New International Version)
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Every fall might be tough, but trust me, you will grow spiritually stronger than before and, then you will be even more glad to know that He led you through the tough times, but yet your relationship with Him is so much stronger and you will not regret it. These hurts will fade away someday. You might ask when, I really don't know, but you just got to continue to stay strong and trust Him. I have been through such falls, I know. It wasn't easy for me too, (like I shared with you before) but Kor, you got to stay strong cause I know with Him you can do it! May peace be with you. Amen!

"The God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet. The grace of our Lord Jesus be with you."
Romans 16:20

Peng: Thank you for sharing with me. Thank you for telling and sharing 1st hand thoughts with me. I really appreacite them. We have been through so much together. The happy times and the hurting times. We both cried infront of each other too. There is so much that I want to say sometimes, but I chose not. Don't ask why. Sometimes, it's best to keep it to oneself than to hurt more of the other party. You don't have to thank me for those times that I hear you out till the wee hours of the morning. Things of the same issue, the same problem, almost everyday for the past weeks. These are things that I should be doing and I am willing to. Despite those work and tests I had the next day, it didn't matter much to me if slp wasn't enough. Peng, it has been only 4-5 years that we are together. This wonderful friendship/ realationship we had and are having means so much to me. You are just so part of me now. It just didn't seems 4-5 years, but instead it seems like 10 years. Do you know that whatever happens to you, matters so much to me? Even the hurt you are having now. You might not understand, it ok. I don't blame you or force you to find out, but all that I want to say is that: "Peng, Thank you so much and for those times we had." Take care.

J: We got to know each other through Peng. Despite the distant of friendship we had, I still want to thank you for sharing with me. As I said before, in life, not everything will go the way you want it to be. I am not a fortuneteller, so I can't answer you. I'm sorry. Everything is a learning experience. We got to overcome things and not allow them to pour over us. I know it's not easy to accept the fact, but sometimes we just got to. I hope you will continue to stay strong and move on with life. I know you can do it!

Shirley: Jie, we are cousins, and we spent some childhood together. The situation between you and KK is something that I hope things will get better. You didn't want to talk much about this matter, I understand. However, for me, seeing both of you so hurt, it hurts me too. All that I can do is to pray that things will be sorted out soon and no foolish things will be done by any of you. I know KK wanted to do something, but I guess you are the only one to stop him from such matters. I also pray that as each day passes, your trust in Him will be stronger. Continue to attend church services; it's sad for me to see you being drifted away. Jie, take care and God bless!

"We know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose."
Romans 8:28

Aiwei: I didn't foget you! I hope you are doing fine with both school work and the situation with Kelvin. We haven't be spending time together and those sharings we had on the phone, I miss them. Both of us are just so busy with school work and stuffs, but I pray that your walk with Him is still going stronger, or maybe stronger. Take care and cya around in church! =)

Berry: I'm glad to hear that you know what you want or rather who you want. Hearing you out, was my pleasure. No thanks needed. Sacrificing my sleep, studying lesser was ok for me. I didn't mind. Thank you for sharing all these while with me. I truly appreacite them. =)

Rei: You suddenly disappear, but I hope things are getting better on your side. Thank you for sharing with me for those weeks. Even though the other time, I waited for more than 2 hours on the phone silently and unknowingly while you went crying. I know I can't do much to make situation better between you and her, but all I could do was just to hear you out. I hope oneday, you would come to be saying that, "Rachel... I know what I want in life and I'm moving on stronger!"

"Those who sow in tears shall reap with joyful shouting. He who goes to and fro weeping, carrying his bag of seed, shall indeed come again with a shout of joy, bringing his sheaves with him."
Psalm 126:5-6

What a day! Or rather, WHAT A SHOW!

2005-08-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

What a day! Or rather, what a show!

Mr Tan's Accounting lesson was cancelled today.. for whatever reason, I don't know.

Went to PS with Dara, Trina and Chen Fei to catch the movie - 'The Maid'
Ha! Can't believe it! Rachel is watching a MOVIE after donkey years!!!??? Haha...
Ha! What a show! All 3 of them warned me not to scream when it starts and ha! Guess what?

Even before the show started. Chen Fei, who was seated on my left, hugged her bag and took her file to cover her face! Dara, on my right, used her jacket to cover half of her face! Ha! Trina just sat there are fininsh up her popcorn! I was just seated there with my bag on my lap!

Throughout the show, haha... Chen Fei covered her face with not just only her file, but also with her palm! Talking to herself, which made both Dara and me laughed so much! Honestly, the show was rubbish to me! Most of the scenes, Dara and I were laughing rather than being scared! Haha!

So! Those 2 of my left and right seems to be the ones who are really scared initially, or rather, Chne Fei's the one! Haha... and I proved them wrong!! Ha! *DARA!!!*

Haha! The funniest part was that Chen Fei was so scared that she wanted to go home badly before the sky turns dark! (It was only 6.15pm at that time) Dara and I scare her a few times after the movie ended, and Haha... you got to be there man! It was like DARN funny! All 3 of us, Trina, Dara and I were like laughing our heads off! Haha..

OK... Enough! Anyway, Instead of having Mr Tan's lesson... where we didn't see him in class/sch earlier on, we saw him on screen instead! He was one of the 'Maid's' family friend or rather one of the Chinese Opera members. He was playing the erhu (i think) in the show. Said a few lines in the begining scenes. Do look out for him if you are going to catch this movie! He is seated on the left, wearing dark red shirt!

And to Themis! : I'm so so sorry that I didn't see you at PS, BK today. And It's not you are big that I didn't see you, (you are not big too either) but instead... you were hinden by seats and all that I saw (when you called me) was only your head. Your head isn't that big either! Ha! Anyway, think you have lost weight.. Haha.. ok! EAT MORE! Ha..Okay.. Cya around in sch! =)

My thoughts...

2005-08-19T22:12:00.000+08:00

I saw,
I thought,
I'm disappointed.

I think so much,
I'm such a thinker.

I asked:
"Where are you?",
when I needed you most;
I didn't get a reply.

I questioned so much,
I wondered too.
Sometimes I just hope that time pass faster,
so I can know the answer.

But it seems that
I have no choice,
but to pray and trust Him more.

It's a test,
It has always been a test for me.

Every day's happenings,
Everyday's problems,
the good, the bad,
the ups, the downs;
so much that I want to share with you;
but sadly, you aren't here.

We are both busy
and have our own commitments,
but sometimes i just hope that you would ask me out;
but know, it's difficult.

All that I hope
and have been praying for,
is that,
Oneday,
you would come up to me and say...

"Rachel... let's start the journey together once again!"

Festival of Praise @ Singapore Indoor Stadium 2005

2005-08-08T15:30:00.000+08:00

Went with some of the cell peeps on Friday - 5th August 2005 to SIS for FOP!

Pple who went:
- Christine
- Christine's Friend
- Gina
- Zhi Wei
- Lisa
- Priscilla
- Wei Ling
- Wei Ling's Friend
- Jared
- Daniel
- Eugene
- Me!!!

And Praise God! By faith... we went in smoothly! (with Christine's Prayer)

It was so full house, and end up they got to lock pple outside (example: Grace and Isabel) *sigh* Many queued for hours till the carpark near Kallang Theatre... surrounding the bus-stop etc...

This year, it wasn't just Hillsongs but also Delirious! These are the 2 biggest Christian Bands in the world! This year marks the 19th year that Hillsongs come to Singapore... while it's Delirious' 1st time!

When Hillsongs and Delirious started to sing, the whole atmosphere was just so amazing! The people around me were so into the song and being so expressive and singing with all their heart and really feeling His prescence! Indeed, God was in the house! Amen! =)

Saw Sharon (for the 3rd time that week)... she was sitting just behind me with her church cell. And she told me that one of her church friend actually reached there are abt 2pm and was one of the first 10 pple who reach SIS... Oh man... can you believe it!!!??? *Gosh!*

Anyway, Praise and Worship was good... really felt that God was in the house! (Amen!) And I think for the first time I clapped till my palms were so painful, and red! But that's just a small part of it... He died for us and with nails piercing through both His palms... what more can I complain when His was more painful...

Jesus, my Lord and Saviour... =)

Click to view photos of FOP - 5th August 2005 (Friday):
http://share.shutterfly.com/action/welcome?sid=8BYt2bRw4asoK

And it's not so tough for these Ordinary hands, When we trust someone with Extraordinary plans... =)

I want to FLY!!

2005-08-06T13:05:00.000+08:00

Was having Mr Colin's class as usual on Wednesdays... and for more than 1 year... that I want to "fly"... Haha.. yes, FLY! (of course, with Rock Climbing safety belt)

But sigh... suppose to FLY that day, but didn't... end up we did this in class...

With me Standing on a ladder... trying to reach the bar to hook and locked it... (and yes... I know I'm short! Ha!) And I didn't know that Dara took this pic of me... Haha...

It was kind of fun though it's just simple stuffs...

And of course... I CAN'T WAIT TO FLY!! Haha... (Crazy Rachel!)

Ciao... =)

NPD Preview - 30th July 2005 (Saturday)

2005-08-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

It was raining so heavily last Saturday (300705). It rain from morning till late afternoon... Met Peng for NDP Preview at City Hall... and argh! Miss her! *missing you now still* Heh...

Anyway, despite just being only the 2 of us watching the parade... we have had fun! =)

God was and is really good too... Amen! When we were there, we met really nice Singaporeans... as the seats were wet, both uncles beside me and behind provided us cloth to wipe dry the seats. God provided the windy, fine weather and most wonderfully... he providing me the wonderful quality time I spent with Peng! =)

I must admit that at least for us, the parade was boring (except the theme song! Ha!) but the moment spent together was so nice, I mean... it was like "wow!" Thanks Peng! Thank God so much for you and those wonderful moments spent together! =) Love you! =)

Click to view photos of NDP Preview 300705 (Saturday)
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2122793396&code=17541696&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite

Bak Kut Teh! Haha... =)

2005-08-04T20:45:00.000+08:00

Haha... Ok... Here we were here yesterday... Balestier.... craving for... Bak Kut Teh! Haha... =)

Ha! Look at Dara's expression! Spot the difference! Ha! =)

Wow! I'm sososoos full! Anyway... we have had fun dinning together

@ Balestier... Bak Kut Teh! *Dara screams* Haha...

Ha... My Family Business? Haha... ;)

2005-07-26T21:45:00.000+08:00

jonovan Tuesday, July 26, 2005
To my dearest spouse of my precious 'daughter' (read: Rachel Tan)...nice? Cool way to start the testimonial huh? Anyway, just felt like dropping by..sigh...we're definitely and sadly in the same boat. Too bad you're not...*ahem* or else you know..I think you should understand what I'm talking about man...'false hope' <-- does it ring any bell? anyway...saddeningx2!! Hurry up turn into a...*ahem* man...I'm sure many will fall for you...LOL!! If only I can let go as easily as you...but nah, I can't..pity and unrealistic me..so yea, dinner soon or lunch also can..see you and take lotsa care!! P.S. Do take good care of my 'daughter' or else I'll "chop" you up...LOL!!!!

WaI pEnG Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Ai yo... My dearest father-in-law, Jonovan... Haha... You should take care of me instead of your "daughter" lehz~ She always bully me... Lol... =x
I also wish I can let go so easily lor... Haha... So damning that we both in the same boat... Haix... Haha... Let's look to the brighter side lar... (We wish)
Lets go drink one day lar... Always say say but no action one right... Haha... =x As for me becoming *ahem* no thanks... Haha~
Okie... Stay shuai and cute always... Smilex!

Haha... and Specially to Mr Jonovan: You are great man! Ask my spouse to take good care of me, unlike someone... who says I bully *ahem* her/ him... Haha!! Thanks Daddy! =)

And, to my Dearest Spouse: My daddy should take care of me!!! I'm his *ahem* Real Blood daughter, and you are just an outsider, and I brought you in! Haha... And I never bully you... I was trying to share our joy with your friends.... Haha!! (Don't kill me!!! Don't wish to slp at the corridoor, void deck or toilet! Ha...) Ops! Haha... Don't worry la, dear (Ops! Ha!) you are cute and ya, by just looking at that video, just makes me laugh and brightens up my day! Thanks! =)

Finally... I did it!!

2005-07-26T21:06:00.000+08:00

Took these photos before re-colouring my hair...

And Yes, Finally I did it! I cut my hair yesterday and LL re-coloured my hair for me (Light Golden Brown) ... It might seems the same but, it's like half the length of what I had... (It's shoulder length now, Sigh) Well, honestly, kind of bu she de, and actually I kept procrastinating for weeks sigh... my mum complains it's messy and it will still grow...

Went to school today, and Mimi said I look younger, sigh... Ok... nvm... and Dara said that she likes the colour, but asked me why I cut it so short... (Don't know, ask the hair- dresser) Sigh... (I miss my hair!!!)

Well, it has already been cut! So, no complaints, Rachel...

Jesus, My Saviour, My Lord, My Provider...

2005-07-19T11:20:00.000+08:00

God is still good... Last week one of my friend was telling me about he going for the bursery interview and I was like... "God, why haven't I receive any calls from the school to go for interview for my Scholarship?"

I was a little kind of disappointed initially, but kept reminding myself to trust Him and to pray... Then on Saturday, I saw an envelope on the dinning table which was from my school, I was kind of scared at that point of time as I was thinking, "God... I don't want to open it... what if it's a bad news that I am not given a Scholarship or anything...?"

But afterall I knew I still have to open it... so I prayed 1st then opened... and indeed, God is good, He has been always so faithful... Amen!

I wasn't given the Scholarship but still I have had this Merit Award of $2, 000. I am really grateful and thankful for He is a good and awesome God! Amen! =)

Leaving you with a verse:

But let all those that put their trust in thee rejoice: let them ever shout for joy, because thou defendest them: let them also that love thy name be joyful in thee.

Psalms 5:11

Thank you Jesus, Thank you all... =)

2005-07-15T10:58:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since I fell ill... had a high fever in school yesterday with a very bad cold. Was feeling so cold despite of the jacket I was wearing. Couldn't concentrate during Music lesson yesterday... and from where I was seated, led me to the floor... Called and SMS my dad... he didn't reply till a later time. He wasn't able to pick me up and to bring me to see the doctor... took a cab home in the end...

Nicole: Thanks for offering all you had... =)
Dara: Thanks for the 10 bucks...
Trina & Emilia: Thanks for your concern...
Mimi & Nur: Thanks for your concern and seeing me getting into the cab...
Rei: Thank you so much for smsing me and to check on me if I am feeling better. Thank you so much for the concern. I truly appreacite it. It's a joy knowing you.. and of course, I have not forgotten the drink... (heh) Thanks Rei... =)

Slept for about 4 hours before I went to see the doctor at 9pm... Both my parents weren't able to accompany me to the doc, and end up troubling me Aunt. I walked into his room, sat down, and stared at him and immediately he said, "Cold, Fever, Flu..." Ha... I gave a wee smile...

My parents came home only at 11pm, and my mum gave me sth to eat as well as prepared really cold icy towel and ice pads to put on my head and body. Its been so long since I'm given this special service from her... Ha!

Well, really want to thank God for giving me speedy recovery and guess I will be going to school later... yeah! Cya! =)

Gosh... DS! Thanks Peng...

2005-07-15T10:23:00.000+08:00

Oh man... forgotten abt Darryl... (pardon me if you see this)... anyway, where have you been? You seems to be happy with your life... esp in school and in waterpolo... It's been so long since we met up... when can we have at least coffee together? Anyways... take care and have fun! =)

Little notes from Me to You...

2005-07-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

Peng: Peng!! You are always the 1st for me to write when writing about these stuffs, cause...(you should know very well by now, and it's not about the spouse thingy we are having.. but another matter, get it? Ha...) Well, It has been really great hanging out with you once in a while, despite the little time we have. And currently I know you are still in that dark sading circle... I hope you can really get out of it soon because if I can do it, I’m sure you can too... alright? *Smile* dear... (heh)

Berry: How’s business? Running good? Running dry? Ha... great hanging out with you all these while... almost every week I must say... haha... "Daddy, where's Mummy?" Haha... Crap!! Anyway… I must say that we both have been great lawyers... and ya... thanks to me also for being a great actress and storyteller to you... Haha!!! And hearing you almost every night, lying on my bed with my tired eyes close... I really didn't mind; as long as my help to you works, nothing matters… yeah buddy!!! ;)

Mun: Thank you for being such a wonderful friend to me... and on the 2nd January next year, will be our 10th year together... wow, time passes so fast! You have been such a nice brother and friend to be with... Thanks Mun... =)

Meng: It was nice meeting up with you the other time. Hope things are running well for you and yeah, do meet up soon, after all we live so near one another... Cya and take care, Kor! ;)

Pt: Gosh... where have you been? Or rather where have I been? (I’ve not forgotten you!) Haha... How's life? Guess you must be having a wonderful time with Zen... It’s going to be your 9th month (3/4 year) together with him soon, but not for me... sigh, ok nvm… anyways... take care and yeah, see you around in school... =)

Qi: How are you? Guess you must have finish your common tests by now. You seem to be really studying REAL hard for it… but always remember, don't stress yourself up and be realistic in life... Cya and take care, ya? =)

Wan Ting: Sorry that I wasn't able to attend the Graduation Ceremony held at your church, but thanks for informing and reminding me about it. I was really happy to see you the others days with the girls (Edna, Wen Fong, Berry and Christine). It just all reminds me of we hanging out together when we were in sec 1 (7 years ago). Anyways, really hope to catch up with you again soon and mean time, take care and May you grow spiritually stronger each day too! Amen! =)

Edna: Are you ok? Sometimes situation seems to be very complicated between you and Kelvin, but I really hope things will be sorted out properly soon, once and for all so that you two can be a happy and loving couple. I hope school's great for you too, (after the transfer)... anyways, take care ya, anything, just drop me an SMS or buzz me anytime, alright? =)

Wen Fong & Christine: It was really nice meeting you girls up during my holidays despite how busy we were. Thinking back when we were sec 1 (7 years ago), and now… well, time really flies... hope to meet up again sometime soon... Take care, Cya! =)

Brian: Sigh… I'm typing this, but I am also wondering if you will see it. It’s been quite some time since we hang out together... How's school? How's life? How's dumbbell? Well, I hope school's going well for you... do give me a buzz when you are free, ya...? Take care =)

Themis: Heya... What’s up with you man? Giving me miss calls in the middle of the night, or rather morning, that fun? And the best thing is, just ONE ring... Called you back, asking you why... You said "Nothing"... HaHa.. YaYa... What's up man? Are you ok anot? (dots) Running a fever? Haha... And PLS don’t drink so much... (YA, i know it's them) take care of yourself la... Cya in school! =)

"Black": You have been really a nice person to talk with... Thank you so much for everything. Thank you for being so thoughtful for me. Thank you for accompanying me on the phone despite how tired you were. Thank you for telling me inside stories. Thank you for the joy, crap and laughter. Thank you for telling me that matter too. You have been really nice to me... Thank you so much... *smile* =)

~~Ben (Tan):~~ It's been more than a year now that we have known one another. And I really want to thank you for all that you have helped me. Sorry that I couldn't talk on the phone with you as I was/am really really busy. And I have already told you the answer so many times. You can say that I am bad, selfish or whatever, I really don't mind, but I just want to tell you once again that my answer is "NO" to that question, as there are too much differences between us. Thanking for taking the effort to try dating me, but sorry I am really that busy and I don't even have time for myself. You are so smart, so brilliant that I can’t put myself with you… But I pray that one day God will show you who will the 'SHE' be for you. Continue to pray about it and to trust in Him. Be patient too, Don't rush... Ben, it's really nice knowing you and I hope to build a better friendship with you, alright? =)

Leaving you with a verse:

Make a joyful noise unto the Lord, all the earth: make a loud noise, and rejoice, and sing praise. Sing unto the Lord with the harp; with the harp, and the voice of a psalm. With trumpets and sound of cornet make a joyful noise before the Lord, the King. Let the sea roar, and the fulness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein. Let the floods clap [their] hands: let the hills be joyful together.

Psalms 98:4-8

NACLI Photos...

2005-07-03T20:35:00.000+08:00

Okay... got a monitor from my uncle yesterday... he has 3 at home, but only uses 2, so he passed me 1... Thank God! =)

Okay... so here are the photos of NACLI... (More of the enviroment, rather than the pple)

Click the link, to view: http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2124342286&code=16939980&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite

Sunday Times! Ha... Praise God... =)

2005-07-02T14:25:00.000+08:00

Was serving on Sunday, 26th June, for the 3pm Main service... had practice after that too... Pris brought her cam and wanted to take come photos for her project and there she goes... enjoying taking photos... =)

Busy Rachel...

2005-07-01T13:00:00.000+08:00

Finally, I am back in front of the computer again… not my desktop, but my dad’s laptop... "MY MONITOR GOT... BURN!!!" Argh!!! It got burn off on Monday after I was using the com half way in the afternoon... sigh... ok, nvm...

Okay... using my dad’s laptop secretly to check my mails and stuffs...

On Wednesday and Thursday (which was yesterday), NAFA was having a camp/chalet at NACLI (National Community Leadership Institution) - http://www.nacli.pa.gov.sg/ . It’s at South Buona Vista Road...

Reached school as early as 8am on Wednesday, and left NACLI on Thursday at nearly 6pm. Played lots of interested games though... food was really good... and they took REALLY good care of our stomach... ha! By providing us breakfast, tea break, lunch, tea break and dinner, but no supper... Ha!!! Guess I have grew fatter too... The rooms were shiok too... ha... with really cool air-cons, nice toilets, such clear enviroment, with nice senery.... haha... ok... enough...

Then went Orchard with the girls after that (Lucida, Lay Hoon and Trina)... 1st place... Centrepoint, then to Cine leisure... for dinner... Ha! Okay... nvm...

Slept early when I reached home, really tired... and sigh... woke up with my neck aching all the way to my legs... *Arghhhhh*

Okay... Rachel’s going to be a bee again... busy, busy, busy... sigh... going to be involve in BUTS (Ballet Under the Stars), which will be held at Fort Canning... got to leave house soon... got to reach SDT (Singapore Dance Theatre) at 2.30pm later... got to watch the rehearsal...

Will upload the photos of NACLI soon… sorry guys... catch up with you real soon again… Okay... Take care, Cya! =)

Trusting, having Faith and Prayers...

2005-06-25T15:55:00.000+08:00

God is good... God is awesome... God is real... God is wonderful...

I really thank God sososososososososo much for He has given me this results... I really didn't expect to get a GPA of 3.55 as I didn't study much (really, I didn't) ... neither did I get ample rest as I was rushing projects...

God is really good... Trusting and having that faith in Him is SO important...

Prayer too... before, during and after the paper...

Without Him guiding me, watching over me... I wouldn't have this results...

All the glory goes to Him... Amen!! =)

Lord, Thank You sosososo much for blessing me with this results...

Leaving you with this verse:

Commit thy works unto the Lord, and thy thoughts shall be established.

Proverbs 16:3

Sec 1 Peeps... - 21st June 2005 (Tuesday)

2005-06-25T15:35:00.000+08:00

On the 21st June, Tuesday... which was like about 4 days ago... the day after PCK Musical ended... met up with the girls whom we sticked around with in Sec 1... yes... about 6 or 7 years ago??? Ha!!

Edna, Wanting, Wen Fong, Christine, Prisberry and Me.... =)

Had Pasta Mania at Tampines Mall...

Anyway... had a great time, laughing at lots of stuffs... especially at the later part of the night, after a phone call from *, received by Christine... Ha!!

Okay... more photos from this link... Enjoy... =)

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2124725662&code=16797039&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite

PCK Musical 10th - 20th June @ SIS

2005-06-23T23:05:00.000+08:00

It officially ended three days ago... 20th June 2005 (Monday). Woking in this Mega Musical has been a different exposure for me. It taught me responsibility and patience...

Met really nice people, like Gurmit, Irene, Marcus, Bill, Jayine, Joanne, Ming Li, Vivian, Steve, Beverly, Ian, Steven, Ming Yong, Pei Ling, Ying Fang, Ming Yong, Joyce, Adeline, Yen Miin, Kelvin, Roy, Shelia, Yen Peng, Varian, Meroy etc...

Gurmit was really nice, amicable and appreciative... He gave me a mould on the last day too… that was so nice of him...

Irene was really nice and funny too... she gave me some Tim Sum... and she bought us Chicken Pies from 'Don's'... She gave most of us a bag from her own company – FLY Entertainment, and she wrote our name, a short note and signed on it… Was her bag barrier for every performance too.

Marcus was friendly and nice; he gave me a personal ‘LIVE’ Concert in mostly Chinese, with him playing the guitar... and singing... He can sing really well and his songs are really nice, I must comment...

Ian was really nice too... gave me a Lipstick... (though it looks a little too pink for me)

Pei Ling, Ming Yong, Ying Fang, are really nice people too... Ying Fang can sing really well, not only in Chinese, but also in dialects. Cool! ;)

Steven, Yen Peng and Varian are really nice people too... Varian has a very nice smile, I must say... Ha! =)

And many others… too many to be listed…

Okay, I was smoking a lot too... ...

... ... Yes!!! ... Passive Smoker... Sigh...

Gladly to my surprise, many people whom I met are His children too - Gurmit, Irene, Charlie (King Kong), Don (Ah Soon) and many more.

During that last performance, the casts added in many funny acts in it.

The last day, Gurmit teared... when he told the audience this...

"... 8 years ago, we didn’t expect to come this far… without you all watching our show, without all your support, our families will not have water, food and a shelter to live in. Without you all, we might not hold on this career... ... from the bottoms of our hearts, we thank you gratefully... (Gurmit half-knelt)..."

He continued thanking everyone, he words almost made me teared... Gurmit has been a strong man, despite on how the media had on him, the negative reports... he was seriously ill too, before and during the shows. He had a high fever... but still God was and is good, He pulled him through...

For almost all the shows, he said something that touches me a lot. Before he stepped down from stage... he would say...

"... You can don’t care about anything, but always remember one thing… God Loves You..."

The last 3 words was what he said, after every performance... has really touched my heart a lot... because he is sharing the Gospel, despite him working/acting on stage…

From that, I knew how much he loves God...

And even after the whole Musical, I even over heard Don telling Gurmit this,
"Shall we gather the people and give thanks?"
I was like, "Wow!!" =)

And I was thinking am I doing our part as His sheep? Are we sharing the Gospel even when we are tired/ busy? Are we doing enough? How much do we love Him?

Thinking through these questions as I am typing this... I must admit that my spiritually health is weaker...

I really hope to spend the next 17 days of my holidays wisely...

Okay, back to the Musical, met really adorable, nice, active boys... like Andre, Neville, Issak, Zenas, Sherwin, Samuel, Man Chun etc.

Of them all, there’s one boy who really touched my heart a lot – Sherwin...

On one afternoon, when all 3 groups came to Singapore Indoor Stadium (SIS)… 18 of them from St. Andrew’s Junior/ Primary School... they were all so noisy and playful...

They kept disturbing me and teasing both Mimi and I… for example, when I was talking on the phone about 10 of them surrounded me... trying to hear my conversation on both the phone and when Mimi and I were talking. Told them to go and do their own things, they wouldn’t listen. Sherwin was one of the naughtiest among them. I was so pissed; that I shouted at all of them... and I really didn’t expect I will do it... the room then became so silent for a moment...

About 1 hour after I have shouted at them... I went to find them again. Mimi was talking to them, and then a few of them said sorry… and smiled... At that point of time, I was just thinking if they really meant it.

After that day, when it’s Group 3’s turn to perform, (which was Sherwin’s group), Sherwin became so different... I was really surprised. He spoke to me so nicely, conducted himself so well, I was like, "Wow!!" my feelings for those 3 days was like, "wow..." I started to like him more. Then I asked him, how come you became so different now? Then he said, “There is a limit… to things..." then he said sorry for what happened the other time again. My whole heart just melted. He became such a different person and I actually put him top of the list of my favourite boy... I don’t know how to explain, but the changed I see, was like... "Argh…wow!!!" Even when I talked to the boys, he would helped me to tell the others to listen to me and stop whatever they are doing, unlike the other time...

Honestly, I missed Sherwin...

After the show, or rather after the last’s day Reception, Sherwin, Kai Wen and I think Ming Sheng was walking down the stairs, and then I said in a casual way, "Bye… and do you want to give me a hug?" I didn’t expect any though, but guess what? Sherwin, stopped and gave me one... I was so touched... because I could see that his hug was a sincere one.

He even called me yesterday asking/ telling me about some audition from Irene Ang, telling me that if he and his friends gets in, they will be going China for 3 months and having a teacher to teach them English, Maths and Science. He seems to be excited about it... moreover it’s free!! He asked me to volunteer myself so we can go together... I was like... wow ... He called me today too, which was kind of surprising... telling me about his day during the audition etc... Really happy and surprise to hear from him... =) *Thanks Sherwin, Really nice to hear from you*

During the reception on the last day, Meroy took a photo with me. Got to know him when he wanted to help the Choir to change the sizes of the T-shirts, in the earlier days of the Musical. Thought he is from Temasak Secondary, but he wasn’t. He was actually there to help his friend, Darius (a current NAFA, Diploma, Music Student) to conduct the Choir. And after taking the photo, he said:

Meroy: "You are a student from NAFA right?"
Me: "aa… how you know?"
Meroy: "Arts Management, Year 1 right? I always see you in school..."
Me: "Oh is it?"
Meroy: "Ya… and I’m actually from NAFA, Music, but I’m going to Laselle..."
Me: "How come?"

He didn’t really replied me…
Then I continued,

Me: "That means, you are 1 year younger than me right?" (cause I took Sec 5, not sure about him)
Meroy: "No, 19 this year, 1986 one..."
Me: "Oh... Wow.. then when’s your birthday?"
Meroy: "October"
Me: (I’m really taken aback) "Oh man... me too"
Meroy / Me: (laughs)
Me: "Which date is it?"
Meroy: "26"
Me: (I was surprised again as it was around mine too)
Meroy: "Yours?"
Me: "22"
Meroy/ Me: "Oh man..." (laughs)

Haha…so coincidental… and heard from Christine, he’s a Christian too… Ha! =)

During my work there, saw Ronnie quite a number of times… talked quite a bit to him, and it just made me recall back the times when we were our school’s Control Room, doing 5 Libras… Really missed the fun and laughter I had with him, Fadlin and Suhaimi.

Well, a great Production though… to all the Casts and Company… Well done, guys! =)

Here are the photos of the whole Production from:

Pei Ling’s Cam: http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2124906073&amp;code=16729383&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite

My Cam (You don't need to sign in to view) : http://www.kodakgallery.com/ShareLandingSignin.jsp?Uc=akawtgg.da0fwlc&Uy=-8bvb78&Upost_signin=Slideshow.jsp%3Fmode%3Dfromshare&Ux=0&UV=544011890143_32566705208

Enjoy! =)

Fadlin's wedding... - 19th June 2005 (Sunday)

2005-06-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

On the 19th June 2005, Sunday... I experience something different... I went for the 1st Malay Invitation in my life...

Saw Mr Tan, Dr Yu, Ms Grace Leong and her husband, Ronnie and another NAFA Lecturer...

Went with Mimi, Nur, Joanne and Chun Lai..

Here are more photo shots of that day...

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2124795165&code=16769773&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite

30 Hours Famine Camp @ Ngee Ann Polytechnic

2005-06-23T22:00:00.000+08:00

A 30 Hours Famine Camp was held at Ngee Ann Polytechnic on the 4th - 5 th June...

Nic, Trina, Mimi, Nur and I came on 1st day... then... due to some reasons... the second day was left with only Mimi, Trina and I... We did PA... I did the lightings, Mimi did the video and Trina was in-charge of the stage...

View the link for more Photos... =)

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2125146334&code=16769077&mode=invite&DCMP=isc-email-AlbumInvite

It has been so long since...

2005-06-06T00:45:00.000+08:00

Heya people… my blog seems dead!!! I have been so so busy ever since I started the Production in school on the 20th May… (5Libras)

Haven’t had time to blog…

I must really Thank Him for guiding me throughout this whole Production. In all 4 days, the lightings I did all went perfectly well. Credit goes to Him and not me. It is because of His strength and guidance that led me through the whole thing.
5 Libras’ finale day was the 31st May… I must say a big Congratulations to ALL Finale year (3) Theatre students.

Took lots of photos too… Met really nice people…Had so so much fun and experience too!!!

Okay… so after that day… on the 1st June, went for Phua Chu Kang (PCK) Musical Rehearsal, which was held at Kallang Auto Centre. It’s an OLD, HOT, ULU Place… haha… with those potable toilets… haha

Took care of 6 Primary school boys from St. Andrew’s Junior School… they are really cute, smart though… got to make sure that don’t run about and to make sure they go on stage when it’s their turn…

Saw those casts… talk to them too… they are really funny man… Example: Irene Ang…

Nic and I were clearing rubbish and then, Irene said: “Hey, why you all never clear my car ar? Next time better clear…”

Haha.. then Nic and I were like…haha… ok, nvm.

Marcus was nice too… so is Pierre Png… Other casts like PCK’s “brother” were really friendly… argh… nice people!!! =)

Went to Mediacorp on Friday and guess what? The TV Theatre was like SO small, unlike on TV. And it was really really boring as I was there from 10.15am till 8.15pm… doing nothing as we got to set up those music those for the orchestra and to see them rehearsal and to pack up for them. Didn’t went back to Kallang as journey is so far and the weather was humid… so I slept in that FREZZING Theatre for only half and hour and thought I slept for more than an hour… went to their Air-condition Canteen and saw Denise from Church and Sharon from SHSS (4C, 2002), They were doing their attachment…

The day at Mediacorp was so so Boring, and like really feels like a cage to me, cause if I were to go out, I got to hand over the security pass and get back my IC, and I got to walk a long long way out to the main road, and there isn’t any malls or shops around it, so going out of it, is also pointless… the MRT Station is also like SO far away… sigh… so going in of it… you will really need a car or take a cab!!

End up, went with the girls to the Canteen, hang around, eat junk and to watch TV… And the weird thing was… when there is a show air on TV, the celebrities were in the canteen too and some were like wearing what they wore, when filming… haha…

Went for World Vision Famine Camp and Ngee Ann Poly yesterday and today… I must say that, it was tiring as there wasn’t ample rest and the journey was like so far… went there to pack and clean things when we are suppose to do PA stuffs.

World Vision is a Christian Organization Internationally… and this Famine Camp consist of more than 800 students, aged 15-18... from different schools in Singapore... was surprised to see one of my Choir Junior there... and I was like so embrassed as I have forgotten her name... as she remembered mine... Ops!!!

This morning, I really didn’t want to go, but because of responsibility, I went… I was told to do last minute lightings for the evening concert in Ngee Ann Poly Convention Hall… was kind of frustrated at one point when all of them seems so disorganized and at so many times, I really didn’t know what exactly they want. I mean, that hall is more meant for a conference rather than a concert with many groups of Hip-Hop segments and they expected me to do more colour changing with that 2 hours and to defocus the lights.. I mean it is impossible for me to do it when I need to take down that whole fly bar and put in those colours… and they also didn’t have much facilities as compared to our school as our is more meant for performing sites… sigh, ok nvm… Thank God it was over…

And there was a guy whom, I forgotten where is he from, announced that PlanetShakers will be at Fort Canning on the 28th – 30th July 2005. So pple… take note… if you are interested…

Okay… going to sleep soon… really tired… got to be at Mediacorp at 12.30pm later for the full dress rehearsal…

Okay take care pple… and DO buy the PCK Musical tickets… trust me… it’s worth your money… it’s really really very nice… it consist of all the casts and external casts, the Orchestra, CHIJ Choir, St. Andrew’s Junior Boys etc…

It will be held at the Singapore Indoor Stadium from the 10th – 20th June 2005….

Hope to see you guys there…

God bless… =)

Thank you all, you are Great joy to be with!! =)

2005-05-28T18:37:00.000+08:00

In 1hr and 30mins time, the real thing will start...

Have been in school everyday (except last sat), preparing for this Big day... Yr 3 Theatre Graduation Show 2005. I really didn't mind coming to school early in the morning, sometimes even being the 1st, to open the door. I have learnt a lot through this Production and have made really really nice people like, Zhang Jian (Stage Manager), WangMeng (Lighting Deisgner), Wang Tao (Production Manager), Suhaimi, Fadlin, Ronni, Chun Lai and many many more...

Had so much fun, joy and laughter before, during and after meals...

So much photos taken too...

I really Thank God sosososo much for each and everyone of them... every laughter they have given me, every experience I gained... Feeling so blessed!! =)

Okay... that's all for now... See ya soon!! Yeah... And oh...

I CAN GO CHURCH TOMORROW!!!! YEAH!!! AMEN!!! =)

heh...ok, Take care pple...

God Bless!!!

Waiting...

2005-05-26T19:05:00.000+08:00

Okayyy... Just fininsh dinner... ahd lots of laughter with Ronnie, Suhaimi etc...
Production, Group 2 going to start at 7pm... bored now... that's why I'm blogging... heh...

Life for me has been tiring so far... physically, mentally, and I must also admit that my walk with Him has drifted so much... and I have always long to have a self retreat back with Him.

I long to go to the beach, sit down and reflect - reflect on the great things He has provided, Great experiences... Wonderful

*now Trina is like... haha... BLASTING the song, 'ONE WAY'... in the whole of NAFA'S Theatre...HAHA!!* =)

Ha.. okay, back to what I want to say... and sigh... (I have forgotten!)

I'm spiritually dry... I have drifted in a way... sigh... but I always remember what Ben (Ong) says... :

*ok...now Trina says, "Hi!"*

"When you are physically weak, you are also spiritually weak."

And it's true... I pondered through many times... and I prayed too... I really hope that very soon... my walk back with Him will be much stronger than before.

Okay... Production starting soon... Cya...

God Bless... =)

In the Control Room, once again... =)

2005-05-25T13:50:00.000+08:00

Heya... now I'm in the Control Room once again, listening to, 'Shout to the Lord' (Instrumental)... waiting for everything to start.... Haha...

When I 1st heard the 1st few seconds of the Production Sound Track a few days ago... I was kind of taken aback... Haha... as the house music for this production and a few of it that will be played, are Christian Music... Yeah, I just love them all... Haha... Instrumental of course... songs like, 'There is none like You'.. and erm.. some more la... haha, not going to review them. Ha!

And yeah, did i mention that the Sound Design is a Christian, a student from China? Haha... Yeah man!! Praise the Lord!! =)

This Production is actually a Theatre Graduation Show, Yr 3 Students, entitled, '5 Libras'. It will be played in Mandarin. The Set Design and lightings are cool man... really nice I mean... Ha...

Briefly, it's about a story about 5 girls who realised that all were born with the horoscope of, Libra... (ha... me too, though)... there are some part of BGR, getting married and stuffs.

And honestly.. I don't really know what's the story about... heh... as I'm doing lighting in the control room and my ears were like focusing on what the Stage Manager (Zhang Jian) and the Lighting Designer (Wang Meng) say.

Anyway, interested, drop me an SMS... Tickets are going for Free, only through me or any other Production team pple...

Dates: 29-31st May '2005
Venue: NAFA Theatre
Time: 8pm

Okay... that's all for now... Cya... =)

God, Strengthen Me...!!!

2005-05-24T13:40:00.000+08:00

Afternoon pple.... sigh... to me it still seems like morning... sigh...

I'm now in the Control Room once again... and glad that I could use the com/net and to play music from CDs... or else... ok nvm...

I'm really tired and shag... was in school yesterday for 14 hours - 8.45am to 11pm, sitting up straight on a high chair (no leaning), looking at the computer, lighting master board, and the stage...

Suppose to reach school at 12noon just now, but instead I reached at nearly 1pm. Sigh... God, strengthen me!!!

Okay... got to start work... blog again soon...

God Bless...

Thank you ****, Take care pple... =)

2005-05-22T16:50:00.000+08:00

Heya... reached school at 8.45am... and I didn't get to go to church...*sigh*...

Before I continue... I want to THANK YOU *you know who you are* for taking SOSOSO much time and patience to change my blogskin... Well Done!!! ;)
Really Thank God so much for you... heh...

THANK YOU SOSOSO MUCH. ****!!! LOVE YOU LOTS... heh... =)

Anyway, I'm now in my school's Control Room, wearing a headset, controling the lights... yeah... got some experience today though...

... and I'm now witing for the next cue number...

Okay... mean time, Take care, God bless... See you guys soon... =)

To Wan Ting, Edna, Wen Fong, Chris, Berry: Sorry that I got to cancel the meeting tmr as I'll be having Production for the whole day in school... I'm soso sorry... but I really hope to catch up with you guys real soooonnnn too... Take care... ;)

Leaving you with this verse:

Call upon me in the day of trouble, and I'll deliver you, and you'll honur me.

~ Psalm 50:15

It's Production Time!!! =)

2005-05-19T21:20:00.000+08:00

Finally he called... I mean, Wang Tao... one of those who is In-Charge of NAFA's production - The 5 Libra (will end only on the 31st May)... Got to be in school at 9am!!

And that also means that... I get to go home LATE... and I DON'T get to go to church!!!!

*Sigh*

Okay anyways... hope to gain more experience as a Lighting Operator and have some FUN, of course!!! Haha...

Anyways... guess I'll be having lesser time to blog and to view it... *Sigh*

If there's anything, just drop me a SMS or better still... come find me in NAFA, Academy Theatre!!! I'll be there EVERYDAY from morning/early afternoon till LATE at night... 10 plus, 11 plus or even 12!!! Haha... and You will be MOST Welcome man!!! Haha... bring food tooooo... Haha!!! =p

And I guess, Nic must be laughing at this!!! But Nic, remember this... WE ARE TOGETHER in SINAGPORE... but you were in "CHINA" !!! Heh...

Why God Made Friends?

2005-05-19T16:05:00.000+08:00

God made the world with a heart full of love,
Then He looked down from Heaven above,
And saw that we all need a helping hand,
Someone to share with, who’ll understand.

He made special people to see us through
The glad times and the sad time, too;
A person whom we can always depend,
Someone we can call a friend.

God made friends so we’ll carry a part
Of His prefect love in all our hearts.

~ Jill Wolf

Take Time for Friendship

2005-05-19T15:50:00.000+08:00

Take time
to make a friend;
It is the opportunity
to love.

Take time
to help a friend;
It is the foundation
of goodwill.

Take time
to listen to a friend;
It is the key
to understanding.

Take time
to laugh with a friend;
It is the way
to multiply joy.

Take time
to encourage a friend;
It is the chance
to make a difference.

Take time
to comfort a friend;
It is the occasion
for loving-kindness.

Take time
to call God your friend;
He is the wellspring
of all fellowship.

~ Jill Wolf

Round 4 of Meeting up... ;)

2005-05-19T15:44:00.000+08:00

Yeah… Met Wei Qi with Berry yesterday, as it was so coincidence, Berry and I were going down to Bugis and Qi was there too… Had no Digital Cam so thus we took Neo prints. (Ya… it’s kind of childish, but what to do? We hardly have the time to meet one another too.)

At the MRT Station, Berry and I only boarded the 4th train, as both Qi and Berry wanted to talk. It was packed though, but about 5 minutes later, in the train… received an sms and thought it was Qi or that pestering ‘C’, but… to my surprise… it was Brian!!!

Haha… he messaged, “Hi there” and I was like… “Is he behind me” I looked and… haha… indeed he was and I was like… erm… Haha! Okay… Nvm… Shan’t say… =p

Anyway, Peng, Berry, Qi, Wen Fong, Thank you for taking time out to spend those wonderful catch up together… Thank you and Ha… sounds like Tomato Ketchup!! =)

God evidently does not intend us all to be rich, or powerful, or great but He does intend us all to be friends.

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

3rd Round of Meeting...

2005-05-17T03:05:00.000+08:00

Yeah.. 3rd Round of meeting...? Haha...

Yeah... met Peng and Berry yesterday... bought Berry a cake (a surprise thingy) Heh... as her birthday was on Sunday... and yet... she made me cry!!! Berry!!!

Ha...anyway... had a great time together... =)
Lord, Thank You for everything... =>

Theatre Examination, 7th May '05, 2.30pm

2005-05-16T06:10:00.000+08:00

Theatre Finale Exam was held differently, instead of written, it was a oral one. Each person will paired up with another. One has to be the Speaker for all 3 rounds while the other got to be the Advisor; Mimi and I were together... She was the Speaker, I was the Advisor. Met her at 12 noon to prepare everything, I went to buy the materials while she practiced her script in the library. Supposed to meet her at 9.30am , but I overslept as I only slept at 6.30am that morning as I was searching information on her part, as she didn't have Internet acess at home. Ha... and I was Dara's Alarm Clock that morning... I managed to wake her up at 7.30am, but i was so shagged that I, myself, went back to sleep...

As usual... ha... I am her Mother, her advisor, her English teacher, her clothes lender, her script writer and what more? Her tailor... I hand made this whole costume for her within a 1.5 hr. She made her sword herself though... Ha...

Ms Josephine and Mr Tan (Head) were the Judges...

But I must say that, I really thank the Lord so much for His presence being with Mimi and I during the whole Examination. We were anxious, especially her. I prayed so much that day, even in the toilet of SVA, before we both proceeded to SPA, Theatre... I thank Him for the strength and the creativity He has provided, the calmness and the team spirit that we had. The joy of working together, was truly a blessing! Lord, Thank You so much and I Thank You for Mimi too... =) A cheerful partner, You have provided...

I must also thank Him for the results He has given both Mimi and I, we managed to win the Best Team... while Nur was the Best Speaker. However, I must comment that most of them, tried their best too, for example, Trina, Nicole, Emilia, Chris etc. Well done, pple!! =)

All of us are Winners (to those who did their part), we learnt from one another, we grow together... Yeah? Heh... =]

So, the exam went this way:
Round 1 (20 marks) - The speaker [which was her] has to recite a 200 words script. And what she/they recited will be shown on the screen. The topic we got was on Roman theatre and we focus partly on Gladiator, and thus, I made this Gladiator costume for her...

Round 2 (40 marks) - This part was on creativity. Each group was to pick a picture (draw-lots) and we were only given 10 minutes to come up with information. After which all Speakers will be asked to go backstage. Each speaker would have to talk for 5 minutes when on stage. We were given a Picture of the Greek Theatre, which looks similar to the National Stadium we have here in Singapore.

Round 3 (40 marks) - This segment we were given a word or phrase (draw-lots again) and the same thing, only 10 minutes was given, after which all Speakers were to go back stage. We were given Elizabethan Stage, as the topic.

Lots of fun after the Exam was over... Especially for Nic, it was her last paper...

And of course... we acted stupid.. really stupid for most the photos shots... Haha... =)

The Night/ Morning that I'll never forget...

2005-05-16T01:02:00.000+08:00

It was 10.45pm that the performance ended… and was I was about to go home… I saw the heavy rainfall, the numerous times of lightings and I went back to the Black Box to look for Dara and Trina. I didn’t bring my umbrella, and so I called home and my mum said to wait for the rain to get smaller… so I waited… with Dara and Trina till 11.30pm, on a Saturday night… (14th May 2005)

Trying to get my dad to fetch me, he insisted of me going back myself. Asking me to take a cab before the clock strike 12… as the cab fare would be higher. My mum was like scolding me on the phone… saying that it was a good lesson learnt of me not bringing my umbrella, but, Hello?? I always bring my umbrella to school and so coincidence, I didn’t bring it out that night…

Dara and Trina tried getting a cab for me too, under that heavy rainfall, at school, but we failed. I prayed, and I prayed hoping a cab would stop in front of me… Trina’s shoes got wet too…

Then they suggested for me to walked with them to Peace Centre as there will be more cabs there… Ya… so I followed… I didn’t take a bus from Peace Centre as the journey will be very long, and by the time I reach Tampines Interchange, there will not be any bus home for me, and there will be very few Taxis… and if I were to walk home, I would be far and scary.

When we reached Peace center, I left them, as they will board their bus from there… I walked to the Taxi stand, hoping to get into one, but the queue was so long… it was 11.45pm then… and there am I hoping to get into a cab…

I started to be afraid of the people around me… groups of men… Indian men… (I’m not racist, but you know… just that feeling, scary) Ya, though it was like 11.45pm and to many of you, it seems early…Ya to me it would be early if I am out with my parents or at home, but at that point of time, to me, it was so-called late, as I was ALONE, walking in that heavy raining, hugging the program booklet, trying to get a cab…

I walked and walked and walked… walked till the bus stop which was opposite of NTUC Income, Prinsep Street… I called Mun (TM), hoping that he is in town, so I could take a cab together with him, but sadly, he was at home. Then I called, Berry… but she don’t seems convenient to talk…

Flagging a cab, none stopped, and many were with passengers… and at one point of time, I was like standing in the middle of that big road, outside NTUC Income as I was pondering if I should cross over the other half of the road. Many stared and think I was crazy… and ya… but I desperately wanted a TAXI!!!! None stopped again…

I prayed I prayed and I prayed so hard, that I wanted to scream… “God, Where are you?” Till then I remember that all those were tests… and I also remembered a story told to me, of this girl who walked bravly alone in a park, and there was a man who wanted to rape/ rob the girl, but in the end he didn't as he said that, that night, he saw 2 huge man walking beside her. But the fact was that, there was no one, and only then the girl knew that God was with her, protecting her...

I walked to Hotel Rendezvous and all the way to Kopitiam… hoping to get a Taxi, desperately… and none came… I prayed and I prayed…and only till then, when I wanted to walk further down, a Taxi stopped as its passengers alighted…it was 12.15am then. I was so grateful and thankful to Him.

In the cab, I was so still, I thought back that moment being alone at that hour, outside for the 1st time of my life on a raining night/morning. I teared…

I told the Taxi driver to go by PIE, then CTE, and the worse thing was that he was driving at 100km/hr throughout that journey and we nearly met an accident on the Expressway as the vehicle on the left wanted to cut in to the lane where we was. All these really scared me to death… and thought my life would end… Ya, that was so scary… after that night walking alone in the rain and I was also worried that I will not be able serve at the 3pm service the next day.

I reached home at 12.35am, and I was even scare to take the lift and walked down 2 stories myself… I was praying throughout… as I scare that someone would appear behind of in front of me… ya… Rachel is that scared… Ya, you all might laugh but to me… it was REALLY LATE!!!

*Sigh*

In the past, if I did not reach home at a certain time, my mum would lecture me when I get back, but last night, I was wrong and I thank God for that. She opened the doors for me and told me to take 2 Panodols after I have taken my bath… then she went to bed.

After my bath, outside the toilet doors, I saw the not only the box of Panodols, but also a packet of Milo; and i knew, my mum put them there. I was so touched and thankful… to Him, for her (my mum) and my safety journey home...

God is always good, always faithful, always love, always Fatherly, but are we taking Him for granted? Are we doing things that displeases Him? Are we being a righteous child of His? Are we trusting Him enough? Are we doing enough for our Lord?

I pondered through these questions… and I am still pondering now…

Leaving you with this verse:
This righteousness from God comes though faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by His grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.
~ Romans 3: 22-24

Happy 19th Birthday, Berry...

2005-05-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

I asked you just now, how was your day... you didn't know how to answer me...

I asked you how was the meeting you said, "not bad..."

I asked you where are you and how are you going to celebrate, you said, "with many people... now at Pasir Ris, later at Woodlands..."

I said... "Wow..."

We talked this morning till about 2.30am, despite how tired I was...

And I asked you, how come your mobile kept ringing (sms tone),

then you said..."my friends wishing me, Happy Birthday..."

Then only then, I remember and wished you...

I did remember, but at that point of time, I was really tired...

I'm sorry...

Anyway, I would like to wish you once again...

Happy 19th Birthday, Berry... =)

Oh Rachel!!!???

2005-05-13T01:50:00.000+08:00

Haha... and Ops!!

Ben's going to kill me for sure after he reads this... Ops!!

Met up Berry again... (She wore my spec and took all these photos with her Mobile phone) and ya, I can't believe I meet her like EVERYDAY since Monday... haha...
I am glad that she confronted me every problem she has, every thought she has in her mind... Thank you, Berry...

And just to make things clear again:

I'm STRAIGHT!!!

Berry: Thank you so much for all the trust you have in me, all those times you shared with me. It will be the 7th year I know you this year and I truly understand what you are going through and how are you feeling right now... I know it's painful, it's hurting... ...
but I would want to tell you that I will always be there to hear you out, for you to cry on and for you to vent your anger on. Answering your call at 3am in the morning, doing you a favour, meeting up with you immediately, accompanying you even when I am having my exams, during my buziest moments and scarificing my sleep... I would say that I really didn't mind, as all I have wanted is to be there for a friend, a close and good friend whom I know... =)
Berry, Don't do foolish things again... it's really painful and not worth it... Really...
It will hurt you more...

And SPECIALLY to Mr. Benjamin Tan again... I'M STRIAGHT & NORMAL!!!

And I LOVE God... and I WILL OBEY HIS WORDS...

Round 2 of meeting up...

2005-05-12T16:10:00.000+08:00

Okay... another day of meeting up yesterday... Went to the place which I dislike... and yes... it's Orchand!!!
But went there just to see Ms Wen Fong...

It was time for Berry and Wen Fong to catch things up, while I took photos... yes... I had nothing to do!!!

And I have still yet to meet pple like, Peng, Qi, Pris, Aiwei, Joey, Edna, Wan Ting, Darryl, Meng, TM, Aunt Caroline etc... Sigh...

Anyways... here they are... yes... again - Photos!!! Heh... =)

This is the day that the Lord has made... I'll Rejoice and be glad in it... =)

2005-05-10T18:40:00.000+08:00

8th May (Sunday) was Mother's Day... and... ... as usual... we went for dinner as a family...
Didn't wish my Mum... "Happy Mother's Day"... Ya... Bad Rachel... heh...
Cause, I have planned to buy her a flower the next day, which was.. yesterday... to give her a surprise... Haha...
So... it goes as planned...

Bought a Sunflower at Sunshine Plaza - Secret Garden, the florist shop... heh... =)

Then went to meet Berry @ Eastpoint, for dinner... Ya... many stared, especially me... ya... because of that flower and "us"? Haha.. ok nvm...
Ya, and I guessed, many thought the flower was given by her.. and it's like... NO!!!
Haha...

Okay... then Christine came along for abt 15 mintues after dinner and ya.. was glad to see her after so long... In addition to just that flower bought Durian pancakes tooo... yeah, for my Mum.. =)

Anyways.... this is the Sunflower I bought for my Mum, for Mother's Day... and of ccourse, she was like overjoyed!! Praise the Lord... =)

"Happy Belated Mother's Day?" Haha... Thanks Mummy... Thank you for everything and all the sacrifices you've made... ;-)

Here are some shots we took... =)

[Berry = Blue top, Christine = Pink top]

2005-05-08T17:15:00.000+08:00

Continue from previous post...

Okay... Daddy just came home... and while he was adding in another 2 more corals and a shrimp... I was telling him abt those fishes in the pond who kept looking at me when I counted them just now... (When they all gather together and look at you means, they are hungry...)

Then Daddy asked me to feed, then I was like... "Okay..." Haha... So that was my FIRST time... Haha... Pathetic isn't it? Ha... =p

New Additions to the Family... =)

2005-05-08T16:50:00.000+08:00

On the 5th of May... these new creatures arrived at their new home...
Daddy just love these natures... the fishes and corals... Maybe he wanted something new apart from those fishes in the pond - goldsfish and koi(s)...

There used to be koi in his pond, but they commited suicide (they jumped out)...They were really beautiful... then 2 other fishes just die and I still remember 2 goldfish of his... went blind cause another fish ate it... *sigh*

Now what's left in his pond are...7 goldfishes (just counted), 1 baby koi, and other small fishes... with their plants around it...

Having these, I didn't ever fed them once, can you believe it? Ha...

The People's President...

2005-05-03T00:15:00.000+08:00

"I just want to leave this behind so that our younger generation would not be too combative, too sensitive, too impatient. Try to moderate a bit and life will be much better...show Singaporeans that two things, humility and modesty, are nothing cheap or to be ashamed of."

"To me in the eyes of God and in law, we are all equal. I could have been President of Singapore at one time but if you take away the word President from me I'm just Wee Kim Wee, just like a taxi driver or whoever, a journalist."

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/145516/1/.html

Was serching for some information for my Dance Project, and I decided to type, 'Wee Kim Wee', at the Yahoo search...

As much as other Singaporeans are sadden over his death, I am too...

Still remember when I was in Primary school, I did a project of the past Presidents of Singapore and I still remember that my dad was explaining the Late Mr. Wee to me...

Read through all the news reported in Channel News Asia, and it really saddens me, but as what my dad always tell me... everyone will die one day...

The above 2 quotes are what Ex-Preseident Wee Kim Wee Said... which really touched me.

A humble and caring man, who forever stays in the heart of Sinagporeans...

I pray that His presence and comforting hands be upon the Late Mr Wee's family...

I'm sick and tired of everything...God... where are you?

2005-05-01T19:35:00.000+08:00

Whatever... whatever you say... I have just no energy to explain... no energy for this and for that...

I'm so sick and tired of everything, I can't be bothered of what you/ others think...

I'm just so packed with this and that, so much work to do... So much that I feel like giving up... and this coming week is all my finale year exams and I have yet to touch any books and notes of them...

And there you all, telling me this telling me that, hinting me this hinting me that... I have not time for such things now and I am not interested...

Arguments between my project mate, trying to get things done, explaining like hell (Sorry to say this) to my project mates, rushing all my assignments and hoping to give them my best shot, talking things right with my dad... have already made me boiled... made me worried...

What more do you want?

It's always my fault to everyone...

I'm always the wrong one... nothing is right...

And why are you behaving like this...? You got to be more flexible... you got to look at the situation now... Why are you so wooden-headed? Why? Do you know it pissed me off...? (I'm sorry to say these... but ya...)

My mood hasn't been good for the past 1 week...

You may see me smiling, laughing whatever... all those are just masks...

I'm sorry if my words were harsh, my phrasing was too straight forward... and if I have hurt you in words, I'm sorry...

But, do you know what I am going through? Do you know how I feel? Do you know how stress am I? Do you know what's happening?

Do you know all these...............................................................................................

...................................................................................................................

........................................................................................

.....................?????????????

God, Where are you???

I'm too tired to continue...

But all that I want to say is just 3 word...

I'm sorry...

Lesson at Mr Colin's Workshop (Office)... Fun Day! [260405]

2005-04-29T23:00:00.000+08:00

Shirt for the day... and I think that's Mimi's thumb print... Haha..

Me in a... erm... I don't know what's that call... Mimi and I were just playing with it...heh!!

Many people mistake Mr. Colin as my biological Daddy!!
Haha.. But, Mimi & I call him, "Daddy!!" in school Haha...

"Daddy Colin!!! What are you doing?"
His workshop is in Ubi, Techpark.. and that's why every week, both Emilia and I wear shorts, as it's near our house... Haha... ;)

Mimi and OUR *ahem* "Daddy!!" Heh...

Mimi in the adjustable black "wheel..." Haha

Erm... Me... My face is going rounder... sigh...
Didn't have time to excerise for more than 1.5 mths...

Aiyo... What am I doing with the Gobo Holder (Hope this is the right term) ?

Erm.. Frying eggs in the workshop? And that's Emilia's legs behind!! Haha..

Nur and Me with 1 Gobo Holder!!! Haha...

Now with 2...

Trina, Dara & Mimi...

And lastly.. this pair of lips belongs to.... Guess?
Haha.. Clue? One of them from the previous photo.. Haha...

Can't mention her name here... cause... ...

She will kill me for it!! Haha... ;)

Good Morning!!!

2005-04-29T06:20:00.000+08:00

GOOD MORNING PPLE!!!

haha... yup! again... I didn't sleep... Came back from SDT (Singapore Dance Theatre), at Fort Canning yesterday, took my dinner and took a so-called long nap from 7.30pm till 11.45pm...

Really tired, the night before, I slept at 4.30am and woke up at 7.30am.. and really Thank God that my Dad sent me all the way to school... (ya, was praying about it... as I was really tired to take a train and walked all the way to SPA) and when I was in the car, I was just thanking Him so much as half way through the journey, it rained haevily. And thank God that there wasn't much traffic jam at ECP. Reached school at 8.45am (SPA), and went to film the Dance dept and interview a lecturer.. ya.. for my project (40%)!! Argh.. so much work to do...

And okay... guess all of you must be still be sleeping soundly... Sigh... Just fininsh having a short chat with Dara with the updates of our work... SO MUCH MAN!!! God, help!!!

Actually, I am half way through my work, and typing this as a break, for me...

Got to finish 4 reports and 1 leaflet (and i have yet to think about it) by 9am later... Well, 2.5 report is kind of done...

Anyway, yup, pple... GOOD MORNING!!! Haha... ;)

WHERE ARE YOU???

2005-04-28T01:20:00.000+08:00

I know you have slept!!!!

But WHERE ARE YOU NOW? I MEAN... YA... I WANT YOU NOW!!!

I'M HAVING A DOUBLE HEART ATTACK!!!

1 more that I have to deal with on Sunday!!!

ya... YOU, that I'm refering to!!!!

YOU WHO JUST TALKED TO ME IN MSN 2 HRS AGO (I think) !!!!

ARGH!!!!

and yes... he FINALLY called!!!

2005-04-26T21:45:00.000+08:00

and.... YA!!! IT'S MY TURN NOW!!!!

He (Theatre, Yr 3 Student) talked so fast in MANDARIN... with China accent... and there me trying to catch what he says...

HAHA!!! (Nic, you must be laughing...haha)

and ya, as I was saying.. he called, @ 19:47 hr...just now...

and... got Production Rehearsals EVERYDAY!!! (starting from 11th May, which is just the day after my exams... Argh.. till 31st May) + actual days on the 27th-31st May...

and that also means that... I will be in school from 9AM till 11 plus PM...!!!?? Hahaha...yayaya...

Haha... and THANKS to TM (Tzin Mun), to ask me to HAVE FUN!! haha.. and YES!! I WILL... YAYAYA...

I mean, ya, I dont' mind doing everyday except SUNDAYS, Please? I WANT TO GO CHURCH!!! Argh....

DADDY!!!!!!! =(

F.L.A.S.H

2005-04-25T14:32:00.000+08:00

I was blog surfing just now, when I woke up...
Dropped by Shua huey's Blog and saw this link, clicked it... and...
wow! The music was nice, butI can't read Chinese. Sigh...

(Permission was given by Shua Huey to put in my blog... heh)

http://www.pconline.com.cn/pcedu/carton/mtv/0503/flash/050307tale.swf

I know...

2005-04-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

I'm shag...

I'm tired...

I'm worn-out...

So much work to do... So much things to think about... So little time left...
So much that I have yet to start, So much that I don't know how to start...

I prayed... I asked, but sometimes, things don't work out...

I scolded myself, I slapped myself, I questioned myself - Where's the discipline, Where's the Rachel who works hard...?

Many times, I am very disappointed with myself... I just didn't know how to start...

I prayed, I prayed and I prayed...

I know satan is fighting against me... And I knew God is also testing me...

but I know that with Him, I can conquer him...

Amen!

Packed with lots and lots of work…

2005-04-19T17:00:00.000+08:00

Hey guys,

I hope you are doing fine…

I am very sorry that I am unable to talk so much to you either in MSN, or on the phone now… I am really very busy, packed up so much with work, and left with so little time to complete them… I have yet to touch my books too; and exams are like SO round the corner… *Sigh*… Stuck with so many things, and I don’t know how and where to start at times…

Every time, when I am taking my so-called “break”… I would try to update in my blog as much as I can…

I would really hope to catch with you guys soon, after all the exams and stuffs… But in mid-late May, I would be involved in 5 days or so production in school…and in early June, I would be also involve in a Camp at Sentosa… And by then, some of you might have already started school… Well, I will try to take up time after all my exams and before the productions, so that by then it would not crashes with your school’s timings… k? But I’m really sorry for now… I hope you understand.

This message is especially to people like, Peng, Priscilla (Su, Tay), Trina, Edna, Wei Lin, Shirley (my cousin), Wei Qi, Rachel (Koh), Mark, Josh etc. You guys take good care of yourselves…

That’s all for now… going to rest a while, then going for my Dental Appointment at NDC, at 7pm! Yup!! ;)

Take care & God Bless!! =)

** Lisa – Thank you so much too, for your sms and those words you typed in my tag-board. It did brighten up my day… Thank you! =) And I’m sorry that I didn’t take time to accompany you for Miracle Service (MS) on Saturdays due to the my work load and family commitments… I’m sorry.

** Christine - Thanks for your sms once in a while. I’m really very touched and encouraged. Thanks for the weekly prayers both you and Gina gave. Thank you so much for that thought… I truly appreciate them. =)

** Dara, Nicole, TRINA KOH HUI TING - age 20, birthday (14th April '85) NRIC - S85*****F, currently studying in NAFA, Arts Mgt - Year 1) haha... got to type out these information so that THIS Trina will know who am I refering to.... Haha!!! & the rest – Thank you so much for telling me and constantly reminding me to sleep early. =)

** To the rest of you, if I didn’t mention your name above, I’m sorry. However, I would still like to say a BIG Thank you for your encouragements, prayers, reminders etc. I truly appreciate them. Thank you… =)

So Coincidence...

2005-04-19T16:35:00.000+08:00

Guess whose feets are these...!!
Haha.. It should be quite easy to guess... (I hope) Haha..
Clue : Sec Sch Mates...

Yeah!!! It's Emilia's (White), Wan Xin's (Red Strip) & Mine (Sandals)!

Had 'Sound' lesson today at 9a.m Mr Colin's Workshop @ Ubi (Yeah.. near my area..) And for my project group, we ended at about 10.15am.(2 groups/per hour)

After class, Mimi & Emilia went to do their project after class and as for me, as I have planned earlier on... I went to the Airport(ya, for the 1st time, hahaha, you guys must be laughing, esp Peng!! Haha) myself, trying to study, but I couldn't as I was too tired.. slept only 2 hrs last night... (5.30am) Sigh...

Okay... So, went back to Tampines to meet the rest... Nur, Devina, Mimi & Emilia...at Small Mac... and So coincidence... saw Wan Xin at Control Station, and ended, we went to meet Emilia together. Wan Xin bought her cam and ended up, as usual... we took PHOTOS!! Haha... and the below are some of them...

Enjoy once again!!! =) [Thanks, Wan Xin]

Emilia's head got "cut" off... Haha... but nice mouth shot!! Haha... ;)

My lousy skills!! Haha...

Another lousy shot...

2 cute faces beside me? Haha... And wasted...
I "cut" their faces off!!
Lousy skills I've got!!! Haha.. Sorry...

Sitting at Eastlink Food Court... (Tampines)

Mimi & I... Okay.. at least for this photo, that i took, both our heads are in!! Haha...

Some people of my class? Girls' School? Haha...

2005-04-19T15:50:00.000+08:00

These are some photos taken on the 2nd of April (Saturday). It was also supposed to be our Presentation Day (Trina & I), but due to some “faults” I’ve made… it was being postponed to the 16th April.

On the 16th April, everything went well on a whole, I would say. Really thank God so much for that as I really worked my nights on it. Sleeping in the wee hours (like 5 plus A.M & 7.45 A.M) of many mornings was really worth it. I thank God for the strength He has brought me through, the creativity, both Trina & I had. And the 5 days of filming didn’t just produced a better result, but also bonded the friendship of Dara, Trina & I.

** Dara – Thank you so much for taking time off to help us film this whole video for those 5 days, I truly appreciate your time and effort!! Thanks!! =)

Earlier on in one of my entries, I mentioned that the filming title is on low profile, and thus, let me tell you what is it… well… it may sounds ‘chim’ for those who are not into Western Theatre. Anyways, the title of it is, ‘The Duchess of Malfi’. John Webster wrote this play during the Jacobean Era.

Both Trina and I actually played 9 roles altogether, for Act V, Scene V.

Anyways, both of us are really really thankful for the Lord is always GOOD!!! AMEN!!! ;)

He brought us through this whole Seminar Presentation. And not only that, for me, He has taught me and built a lot of patience when I was working with Trina on this project. [Trina, if you are seeing this, which I know you will, I know that you will know what am I talking about, ya… but anyway, that was history… =) ]

Okay… anyways (again!) Enjoy the photos… =)

Mimi & I...

Trina & I...

What are you all doing? Haha...

Yeah!! The 6 of us!!!
And what is Trina trying to do? *frown* Haha...

And what's this? Haha... Cool? Ha!! ;)

Nur (my "mum") Haha... Me & Nic!!

Us, in the lift!! And what are we trying to do, man!! Haha...

A close up photo of some of my classmates with Ms Josephine!! =)

Another shot...

Again!!

s-m-a-l-l ... ...

2005-04-18T20:59:00.000+08:00

Went to watch Porcelain with Emilia last night... while waiting to enter the Studio,
I felt…

“Small”… get me?

As people were coming to get seated, I felt even “Smaller”…

Esplanade Theatre Studio, which looks like the Black Box, we have in NAFA, but, it’s about one and the half size smaller compared to ours. The depth of it, was also half of NAFA’s.

While waiting for it to begin… both Emilia and I saw quite a number of gays (I would say), Which wasn’t surprising – for this performance.

Okay… when the performance started… the truth and the fact of it, was that, “I WAS THE SMALLEST…”

Get me?

Not just being the smallest, but what I am trying to say is that, I was the youngest audience.

Get me?

Porcelain is a (R) A, show, as stated on the ticket. (Audiences have to be of legal age of at least 18) However. I would say that for me to watch this performance, it is more of an exposure of the different forms of performance of the Arts for me, (since this would be my line, in the coming near future) rather than to watch it for entertainment or what so ever.

On a whole, I would say that this show, was quite vulgar, to me, (Was a little shocking for me at the start)… The 3 actors were covered with clothes, (just for your info, unlike what you see in the flyers). 1 of the actors, Nelson, is a lecturer from our school, who teaches, Theatre. He acted really really well…. (ya, that’s why he is qualified to be a lecturer… ha.. what crap am I talking about…argh… nvm)

What I impressed me most, was the lightings, the use of simple thin cloths, as their screen, which made out to be part of their backdrop…. Interesting and simple, I would say…

Lightings were superbly fantastic!! ;)

In Singapore, the Arts scene is very small… but I really hope that as years pass by, Singaporeans like you and I, will appreciate more of the Arts…

Yeah!!! =)

Haha... Tissues as birthday present? HAHA!!!

2005-04-16T20:00:00.000+08:00

Ha... Look at those words on it carefully!!! Haha...

And they were given to Da Lao, 1 day after her birthday (14th April...) by... ...

Ms Trina Koh!!! Haha.... =) [Tissue boxes + BLACK PIG tissue box cover!!]

Thank you for those times... ;)

2005-04-16T19:50:00.000+08:00

(Typing this in Microsoft word… as I can’t log in now… )

Okay… Just finish my finale touch up on for my theatre presentation in about 7 hours’ time…. It’s on Jacobean Theatre!!

Yes… Dara… Thanks for reminding me again and again to sleep early… but I’m still going to type out about yesterday though… heh… ;)

Okay… tired me again… went for SSO’s concert (Beethoven’s Emperor Concerto) at Esplanade with Dara… (Saw my uncle and aunt there too…) The music was really nice, but unfortunately….

WE FELL ASLEEP AGAIN!!! ARGH!!!! (This is the 2nd time)

We were really tired… sigh… left during the intermission, and Dara rushed to the library hoping to get her music score for her music project, but it was closing soon, thus, wasn’t able to take her time to search for it…

Anyways…. She treated me ice cream at Hagen Das (Okay… I am bad in my spelling…) and saying that it’s her mum treating us not her… Hahaha… (Her mum is in Taiwan!!) Hahaha… Anyways…. “Thanks Aunt!!!” Haha…. Get it? If you don’t, then Nvm…

And she expects me to be more awake (so as to complete my theatre presentation, when I get home) after eating that ice-cream cause I kept yawning even when I was looking at the menu. Haha… Thank you Da Lao!!! *Hugs* =)

Okay… enough of my day!!! Tired, Busy, Rachel….

Just now before I started doing my presentation… I took out the box where I kept all my cards that I received last year during my birthday, on my graduation day and from my previous work place… (Took it out, as I got to take something inside to show Dara and Trina…)

Saw those cards and decided to read through them - Peng’s, Benjamin’s, Wei Qi’s, Themis’ cards… Also read through the card that Trina did, (that my whole class signed on it and gave it to me on my 18th birthday)…. It brought back sweet memories… Thanks! *wee smile*

As I was looking through those cards… I thank God so much for my friends, the people around me… especially people like, Themis and Peng… If you are reading this… I just want to say, a big THANK YOU once again. I really thank the Lord so much for all that we have been through together, be it those 3 years or those few months… Thank you… =)

Okay… going to iron my clothes for presentation later… and sigh.. guess I will be sleeping at 5.30am… Argh!! Okay… nvm… cause I believe and I know that….

I can do ALL things, through Christ who strengthens me!! Amen!! =)

Anyways… GOOD MORNING, PEOPLE!!! And Goodnight to me soon… heh… ;)

Signing off on…
16th April – Saturday,
at 5. 15am

Compagnia Aterballetto (Italy) - 6th March 2005, 8pm

2005-04-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

These were some photos taken before the performance... heh... ;)

Trina!!! What are you doing? Haha...

Again!! Haha... ;)

Wow... Nice scenery, and the wind was strong!!!

Me, Trina & Rebecca... =)

Okay... this pic suppose to be dark, and I tried lightening it, and it came out to be this colour... Argh!! But, nvm... heh... ;)

Beautiful.... =)

4 of us... Trina, Me, Rebecca & Dara... =)

Filming can be difficult, but it can be FUN too... ;)

2005-04-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

Sorry if the photos are so small, but this is the max. that i can go already...

These are some photos of fun time, that Trina, Dara and I took, after the whole video was done!! (The name of the video still has to be kept low profile... Sorry)

Dara, thank you so so so much once again, for all your time and help... I truly appreciate them... =)

Dear Lord, Thank You so much for the joy and laughter both Dara and Trina brought to me, especially during the filming sessions. Thank you for being with us throughout... even now... Your presence is with me/us... Thank You so much for all that You have provided and all that You have done...

In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen!!! =)

What a day!!

2005-04-06T02:02:00.000+08:00

Heya… just finished taking my shower… came back from a whole lot of happenings yesterday (5th April ’05 – Tuesday) …

Okay… let me start telling you…

As I was in Dad’s car yesterday morning, I realized that I didn’t have both my Ez-link and my Student Pass with me. I called home to double checked with Mum to make sure that they are on my study desk. Hence, I borrowed Dad’s one; after all he’s driving to work anyway…

Okay… that started off my day…

Next, when Dad drives me to the MRT Station every Tuesdays and Thursdays, I would take a train to Pasir Ris (So, I am able to get seats which I can lean my head on, to sleep), instead of taking it at Tampines… then to school – Bugis. At this time, when the train reached Pasir Ris… all the passengers were asked to alight, and there goes my sleep, I thought…

But, Thank God… Managed to get a seat that I am able to lean my head against (to sleep), despite the crowd at the platform.

So… I managed to catch up with my sleep on the train…. But…. Guess what?

I overslept!! Missed the station (Bugis), and end up alighting at City Hall… (It happened once last year, when I was going to school too…) However, this time, I was more awake; as the last time when it happened to me, I was so shag and tired that I took the opposite train at City Hall, and end up landing myself at Dhoby Ghaut. And I had to take the train back to City Hall, and then changed another train to take me back to Bugis.

This time… I was AWAKE!!! Haha… heh…

Okay… next… as I was walking to school, I then realized that I am supposed to bring a white shirt for my filming after class… but… I DIDN’T BRING!!!! Argh….

Okay… when I reached class, I wanted to return some money to Dara, as she helped me to breakfast from Bread Talk… guess what?

“Oh no… I think I didn’t bring my wallet…” I thought and I searched for quite some time.

“What a morning, I started off with…” I thought again…

Okay… and… Thank God, I found it!! (Think I really need to change my current wallet, so as it’s more visible… sigh…)

Okay, and what’s next?

Went to our (Dara, Trina and I) secret filming place after class and while eating some light snacks, Nur called me…

“Rachel… YF is here, 2nd level, and * seems quite down, you hurry come…”

I dropped my food, took my phone, and ran all the way there… I almost fell, while running down the slight slope at my school. At the traffic lights, my heart was like beating so fast, I never had this for such a long time…

People walked across the road, I ran… I ran… I ran…

When I reached that place, my friends said that * is there, I walked over, I looked, I searched… YF wasn’t there… went back to Devina and Nur to double-checked… and I scanned through that area again, and I confirmed that, that person they saw, wasn’t YF.

As I was leaving that place with Nur, tears almost flow down from my eyes, and then I asked Nur a question, and I end up knowing the answer myself - after a month of self-questioning…

Okay.. Nevermind, if you guys don’t know what am I talking here… (except Trina, Dara, Nur and Devina)

Next…

Went back to do filming with Dara and Trina… Thanks Dara, our video woman… =)
This filming, we have been working on it for about a week now, as many mistakes were made and also due to the batteries and storage of the memory card in the camera. But today….

Thank God!!! Cause the batteries were running real low (Again!!) but, this time, I brought the connection plug, so as to charged the camera.

As the batteries were running low, we were not able to find switch to charge the camera, while filming (as the charger wire is not long enough) And I was like, “God! Help!! “ Then as we searched around our secret filming place (Heh…), we managed to get electricity from the extension wire (which was laying around) which were used for ‘Open House’, as written below it. (Initially, we thought that it can’t have electricity flow) Both Dara and I were actually quite amazed though… and I was like, so happy… Thank God!! =)

God is good… all the time… He put a song of praise in this light of mine. God is good… (A song… Heh… )

Went to Esplanade library and Thank God that we weren’t caught in the rain, as it started to pour heavily after a while. After a long dizzy searched, found some books and compact disc for my projects and assignment….

Had a quick dinner at Marina square together with Trina, then Dara and I rushed off to the Concert Hall for a concert – The Conservatory Orchestra, Albert Tiu (Piano); Rachmaninoff’s Second.

It was quite alright though, but both Dara and I felt that the music played were kind of difficult to comprehend.

We slept... (a while).

After intermission, the music was slightly better for us.

Bought bread from Bread Talk and I actually mistook a loaf of bread of $2.50 to $1.80. (Dara, sorry, made you blur.. Ops!! )

Finished everything surprisingly.. and sigh.. I am putting on weight again… Argh…

Okay.. so reached home at about 11.45pm and as usual, Mum waited for me downstairs (when I come home at this hour)…

Lord, Thank You for this Mum, that You have given me... =)

Lord, Thank You for all that has happened yesterday (5th April) – the good, the funny, scary and tired times. Thank You so much… =)

Lord... Thank You so much for my Sister-in-Christ, Trina... =)

2005-03-29T21:48:00.000+08:00

Lord,

Thank You so much for Trina…

Thank You so much, for You have brought both of us into this world to experience and to share Your wonderful love with others…

Thank You for all those laughter, tears and joy we shared…

Thank You for those sweet and touching moments we had…

Thank You so much for everything…

Lord, and as each day we live, may we live it to the fullest. May You be our compass… to show us the way, the direction…

Help us to grow spiritual stronger in Your name too… and make us righteous children of Yours…

May we always have a prayerful heart and may You always be the center of our lives…

Use us Lord,
Mould us…
Make us…
Fill us…
Take us…
EMPOWER us…

In Jesus’ name I pray,
Amen… =)

** Thank you Trina, Thank you so much for all that you have given me… those stickers, short notes, cookies, CHOCOLATES (heh…) etc…
Thank You so much... I truly appreciate them... =)

God is faithful... =)

2005-03-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

Heya pple… how was your day?

Anyway… Praise God!!! Went Miracle Service (MS) with PB’s mum yesterday… On my way there, I kept on praying that she will be touched, and she will cry out to Him… Indeed, God is faithful, and He has always been faithful!! Amen!!

Usually, every Saturday evening, my dad would bring us (my family) out for dinner and car ride… however, yesterday I didn’t go with them. Initially, I felt a little weird, as my Saturday spent yesterday was different… but it’s ok…

When I was with her throughout the service, I also kept on praying for her in my heart… at the later part of it, as the altar was open, she didn’t want to go down, I knew she was a little shy. As we, the rest of us stretched our hands towards those who went down, I stretched my right hand towards those people, and my left arm on her shoulder. As we prayed together, I was also praying out loud for her, I was able to feel the emotional pressure she is having, the pain she has in her heart...

As my arms were around her, she cried…

When the whole service ended… I asked her how was it… she said, “it was ok la… “ She also told me that she was touched too… Amen!! Praise God!!!

And she will be going for next week’s service too… Do keep her in your prayer too… Thanks…

Sacrificing the time spent with my family, is worth for that 1 salvation… Amen!! =)

Have a victorious week ahead, people… God Bless!! =)

Leaving you with this verse…

May the Lord of peace Himself give you peace always in every way.
~ 2 Thessalonians 3:16

Divine Appointment...

2005-03-25T22:20:00.000+08:00

Today is Good Friday… went to church for service at 10am. Had a wonderful time of worship medley for about 1hr 25 mins. Initially when we (Priscilla, Amelia, Christine’s Friend – Jing, Christine and Daniel) reached there, it was full house!! Nowhere of the whole building, can we squeeze in, till Thank God, we manage to get to sit at the ledge of the Sanctuary.

After service, met up with the rest – Aiwei, Ben, Jared etc. Initially the plan was to go to play pool, but later on decided to go down to town. However, that wasn’t mine. I wanted to go home to do my work after lunch. As we were walking out of church, I saw my sister. She joined us!

Didn’t want to go down to town, Ben, Aiwei, Priscilla, my sister and I went to have lunch at Hans, Century Square.

After lunch, suppose to go home, but my sister wanted to see some stuffs so we went about hanging around a while.

(Okay… this is the part that I want to share, not much of the above…)

On our way home at about 2.30pm, we passed by Deli’france at Century Square. And I saw PB’s mum. She was alone, about to start her meal, and wasn’t looking that good when I waved to her. I knew she wanted to talk, thus, I told my sister to go home first.

When I went over to sit with her, she started crying. I knew her problems, her emotional pains. When I heard her telling me, sharing with me, complaining to me more of the matter, I almost cried too. The love of a Mother is just THAT GREAT!!

In the mist of our conversation, I knew it from God that indeed, it was an divine appointment for me, not only to hear her out, giving a shoulder to cry on, leading a pair of listening ear, but also to share the love of God. The things God has done in my life, the things God has created, the tests He test us with etc… Seeing her crying, hurts me too, I prayed in my heart, praying for comfort, strength…

I shared Christ with her and she has been very opened with it all these while. Invited her for Miracle Service tomorrow and Sunday Services. Really hope she will be able to make it and I pray that after just one service, she will feel much of a relief and being touched by the love of God; knowing that God heals, comfort etc… Amen!! (People, if you are reading this, please keep her in prayer too, she needs lots of it. Pray for salvation, comfort, peace and strength.)

I really wanted to pray for her at the end of this divine appointment, but her eldest daughter was waiting for her, so I prayed in my heart after that.

I was with her from 2.30pm till nearly 6pm, listening to her, spending time with her was an divine appointment for me from God, as I always happen to see her, especially lately... and This is the day that God has sent me to her! Amen!! I mean, she was telling me that she has no one to turn to, except her eldest daughter. And when she saw me just now, she just poured out everything to me.

God is on the move… God is using me… God is here right now, in your presence… Amen!!!

Lord, I thank You so much for the plans u had for me today – the divine appointment. Thank You so much for PB’s mum, who is so open to Christianity, allowing me the chance to share the Gospel with her and showing her Your Word in the Bible. (Psalm 50:15)

Lord, I pray that as each day she lives, You will give her the peace of mind. Comfort her and give her strength. Help her to overcome all the problems she is undergoing right now. Allowing her to know that You are the only person who can change things and the only One who can make her and the situation turn better one. Provide her a family of love, Lord.

Lord, I also want to pray for her children, that they will be more sensible towards things, their Mother and their own lives. Teach and help them to know what’s right and wrong. Discipline them in Your ways, Lord, guide them through their life journey. Touched them with the love You have given, change them, mould them, teach them; watched over time.

Lord, I come before You right now, praying that You would make situations better in their family. Bond them together closely once again and get them out of the dark circle.

May Your presence be with them, Lord,
In Jesus’ name I ask and pray,
Amen…

Instant Healing – GOD IS REAL, NO MATTER HOW YOU FEEL… =)

2005-03-21T09:58:00.000+08:00

Heya pple… I have lots to post, but I just didn’t have the time. But what made me have this entry is because of what God has shown me – 10 minutes ago. And I am super amazed at what has just happened!!

Okay, actually typing this entry in Microsoft Word as I am not able to go online at this hour (for now).

Okay, it goes like this…

I am actually doing my Dance Report and the anzyme (don’t’ know how to spell, but anyway…) on my neck started to inched badly again!! Actually I only have this problem on my right arm joint (if you guys observed) But this neck thing, I got it a few months back.

Then it was so itchy that I went to apply the Aqurea Moisturizing Cream, and then the other cream that I was given. But, it itched again, a minute later. I really couldn’t bear it any longer, and I thought, maybe I would go for Miracle Service this Saturday, but I know that I might not be able to make it as for Saturdays, my dad would usually bring us out. And I even told myself that I would have to take the tablet for this problem before I sleep later on.

Then, suddenly, I had this urge to pray. So I prayed for instant healing for about 3 minutes odd. After praying I look into the mirror and guess what? Me, myself… I can’t believe this… part of the so-called “rashes” on my neck was like… GONE!! How do I know…? Is because I have this small mould on my neck and I took it as a marking point. (actually realized this mould only when I was applying the cream)

And I just looked into the mirror to see my neck, the rest are subsiding now… (I pray that it will never come back again…) and it’s not even itchy…. and till now, I am so amazed! I mean… Oh man!! God… You are truly awesome!! A God of power, a God of healing…

As usually, when I apply those creams, it will still itch and in the end, I will have to take this tablet that was prescribed by my doctor. And this tablet I can only take it at night, as it will cause drowsiness.

Oh man… God!!! THANK YOU SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO MUCH!!! ARGH….

Friends, healing need not mean that you got to attend Miracle Service (MS) or only when a Pastor prays for you, then you see miracle.. I am not trying to say that MS is not necessary, it is still a service to touch the lives of others who are yet to be believers.

The message that I want to put across you is that, God heals anyone who has that belief in Him…

Do you believe that God is real? Do you trust Him? Are you getting what I am talking about? I mean… God HEALS…. (sharing this, esp. to those who are Non-believers).

God is real, NO matter how you feel..

Lord, Thank You so much… You Reign in Me… Amen!!

Hallelujah!!!!

Praise God!!!
=)

In His unfailing love,
Rachel… ;)
12.30 am
21st Mar’05 (Monday)

Leaving you with these 2 verses…

Behold, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh. Is there anything too hard for Me?
~ Jeremiah 32:27

&

Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.”
~ Mark 9:23

Lord, Thank You for being in my life... =>

2005-03-07T15:30:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday, in the evening at about 4.30pm, my parents decided to go to JB to have dinner and to do some shopping. My uncle and Aunt came along, and in the end, 7 people squeezed in my dad’s car. Because of the jam, it took us almost 1 and the half hours to get into JB. The sun was scorching hot, the car was so squeezy (came up this word myself… Heh…) Didn’t like that idea initially, but… at the end of the day, I appreciated it!

This is what I mean…

On the way back, which was about 11pm. We were waiting at Malaysia’s Checkpoint, and there were like so many cars… 3 cars even cut the queue from ours, and my mum always get fed-up because of that…

Nearing the Checkpoint, I saw many beggars, whenever I got to see them, I always think that they are fake. However, this time, with my own eyes, I saw swollen legs… skinny old people; some even bare-footed. And I knew in my heart, they are for real this time. I pity them so much that I wanted to give them some money, but I know that my parents might be worried for my safety. I looked at them, and all I could do was to pray. I thanked the Lord so much for who I am, where I am… I prayed for their safety, their health…

I was thinking back and my attitude went we came into JB in the early evening… Why was I complaining, just because of the little space I have in the car? Why am I not thankful enough? Am I appreciating what the Lord has given me? Why? Why? Why?

As my dad was driving back, I was deep in thought…Thinking about my life, recalling my past, and I have been wanting to go to the beach ever since I said it more than 3 months ago… There is so much that I have been thinking, so much I want to do and so much I have yet to do…God, help me…!!!

Lord, Thank You so much for whom I am, where I am. Thank You for the family I am having, Thank You for the Christian parents, Thank You for bringing them into my life. Thank You for the love that I received, Thank You for everything! Lord, Help me to appreciate the things around me, help me to love the people around me more. Teach me the right way Lord; make me a righteous child of Yours…

In Jesus’ name I pray,
Amen!! =)

Lord... Bless them...

2005-03-04T08:50:00.000+08:00

Lord,

Thank you so much for providing us education. Thank You for guiding us through these years. Lord, I pray for those who have just received their O ‘Level’ results and for those who will be receiving their A ‘level’ results this today, may they know that no matter what results they have gotten or what results will they be getting, the results belongs to you.

If their results didn’t turn to be their desired ones, Lord I just pray that You will put Your comforting arms around them, and to let them know that, no matter where will they be proceeding to, You have already well-planned for them. Help them to know that You are their refuge and strength, a pillar of help; and may they always seek You.

Lord, I also pray for those who have done well that they will give thanks and be reminded that what results they have gotten, all glory belongs to You, not by their own strength.

And for those of us, who are studying, help us and guide us through every single moment. Empower great understanding, concentration, discipline and wisdom in us, Lord. Help us to always turn to you, and the trust You. And may we always put You in the center of everything.

Lord, Thank You so much for all that You have done for us. Bless us, Lord, Help us…

In Jesus’ name I pray and ask,

Amen!! =)

The Evening of Fun... =)

2005-03-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

Lord, I Thank You so much for Your love. Thank You so much for Your Son, who died on the cross for my sins. I'm truly touched... and Yes Lord; I belong to You...

Lord... Thank You for the round face I have, Thank You for the small eyes You have given me!!! Heh... =)

Thank You for the joy Rebecca and I shared... =) [Blur Pic]

Lord, I pray that as each day Rebecca lives, she will live it for You...

May You help her to grow stronger and wiser in Your Word...

May she blossom up to be a holy and righteous woman of Yours...

Fill her with joy and laughter everyday...

Make her a testiomony of Your name...

In Jesus' name I pray and ask, Amen!! =)

The Afternoon of Shades...(Today) Heh... =P

2005-03-01T17:50:00.000+08:00

Playful Me... with my new Sunshade (Heh... Bought it with Nic yesterday...)

I love looking out of the window, esp when it rains heavily at night, (in my air-con room)with instrumental music accompaniment. Heh... =)

Heh... =p

Blur Pic...

Okay... a clearer pic... Heh... =p
Time to cut my fringe...?

The Night of Shades... Heh... (280205) =P

2005-03-01T17:10:00.000+08:00

Erm... Me? Heh... =P

Guess who...? Haha...

... My sister... (Shaky Pic)

...Her again...

Erm... she and... Me... Heh... =) [Some pple say we look alike, some say, we don't... so we do?]

Me again... my face looks so red!! Must be the yellow lights in my room... Ha!!

RED face... =p

Oh man... my baby fats!!! Heh...

Didn't know her eyes are so far apart till I saw this pic...

Does she look like she is that type who is very quiet and reserved? Haha...

She is very NOISY!!! Ops!! Haha... =p

God created Lights!!!

Light of the world You step down into darkness...

Open my eyes let me see.... (Nice Song)

I thank God for my Sister... though we argue at times...

I thank God for the times we laugh together... =)

Lastly, I thank God for her presence... =)

God is faithful all the time... Amen!! =)

2005-03-01T16:30:00.000+08:00

2 Years ago (2003), I took my O ‘Level’ Chinese… For the 1st attempt, I failed. Had a ‘U’ Grade (Ungraded). It is worst than a F9.

Received my O ‘Level’ Chinese Result yesterday… I failed again… but…
This time, I had an E8. I wasn’t disappointed, instead, I saw something, which God has shown me, and has been showing me. And I am thankful.

Just 2 words: Trust & Faith

Passing Chinese has been a big problem for me. My foundation in it, wasn’t good. I still could remember, when I was preparing for my O ‘Level’ Chinese in 2003, I studied so hard that I couldn’t take it and actually poured out many times in front of both my Chinese tutor and my Mum. As much as I want to learn it well, I was unable to do it well.

At that point of time (in 2003), my trust and faith in Him wasn’t strong and stable.

When I re-took my Chinese for the 2nd attempt last November, honestly, I didn’t study as much as I did for the 1st attempt as I was far too busy over schoolwork and all. I was only able to cover about 20% of the Chinese syllabus. I didn’t have any Chinese tuition, I didn’t even practice a single composition or letter writing.

On those days of examination (for Chinese), I was very calm. And I thank the Lord so much for that. My Mum knows that I didn’t take up ample time to study for it, and had this thinking that I might get back the same result as the 1st attempt and her $64 will be wasted. (Re-taking Chinese paper is $64) But still, deep in her heart, I know that she hope for me to pass my Chinese.

I knew my position; the amount of Chinese words and work that I have covered is so much lesser compared to the previous year.

I walked into the Examination Room by faith. I did it by faith. I trusted Him, I commit everything to Him.

I still could remember when I was doing Paper 1 – Composition and Letter-writing, there were so many words that I didn’t know how to write and all I wrote in English, and then later on, tried finding the words in the Chinese dictionary. Worst till was that I didn’t know how to read the question and thus, couldn’t totally understand what am I required of the topic. I took more than 15 minutes, just to search the words from each question, to roughly get the pronunciations of it, so as to read the word form the sentence. I took more about half of the time, searching for the correct word to put in the writings. Ya, that’s how bad my Chinese is.

For section 1 of Paper 2, whereby I got to “Tian Xie Han Zhi”, I left everything blank, didn’t know how to write a single word. Then for Section 2 (Joining words, example: Ying Wei…. Swo Yi) [don’t know what’s the hanyi pin yi], 3 (“Zhao Ju”), 4 (Close Passage) and 5 (Comprehension – Multiple choice), I didn’t know how to read most of the words and thus, didn’t understand what was it talking about. I wrote the circled the answers by the feeling I had. Then comes to Section 6, it’s the written Comprehension. Again, I didn’t know how to read, and how did I managed to write the answers is that when I see a word or phrase from the question, I would go back to the passage and search for it , and end up copying the whole chunk of it, without any understanding. And at the end up it, it’s like I am making a duplicate of the passage.

After these papers, I didn’t worry a single thing. I left it all in His hands. I prayed over it, I trusted Him, and the results were off my mind.

When I opened the letter yesterday, I just thank the Lord so much for that E8 that I got. I didn’t ask Him why He didn’t give me a better grade, I didn’t complain a single thing. Instead, I was smiling so much. (Ya, you guys might think that I am crazy, but I’m not) I thank Him so much for it, as I knew that He was with me throughout every single moment, which touches me so much. I went up to my Mum, I told her about my results, she smiled. Although, I failed, she was glad that I jumped 2 grades higher.

I looked back, I knew God was and has been by my side. I have learnt so much, I have grown so much (spiritually). Never rely partly on ourselves and partly on Him, but we should rely totally on Him. He has shown me many many times from the start of this year – that when I trusted Him, the unexpected happens. It’s really pointless relying on our own strength. Comparing the 1st attempt and the 2nd attempt, I did better in the 2nd attempt; despite all the struggles I had when preparing for the 1st attempt.

Another thing, if praying without trusting Him, it’s pointless too…

I must also thank the Lord so much for my Mum, my aunt and Joanna, who prayed for me before, during and after the papers. If you did pray for me, I thank the Lord so much for you too.

Lord, I Thank You so much for the result, though it’s an E8. Continue to help me to trust You more and more each day. Teach me, show me and guide me through. Help me Lord! I want more of You.
In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen! =)

Leaving you with this verse:
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
~ Philippians 4:13

Day 2 of Open House @ NAFA - 25th February' 05

2005-02-26T15:50:00.000+08:00

Er... Candid shot....

MIMI!!! WHAT WERE YOU DOING? Haha...

Mr Tan (AM, Head of Dept), asked me and Mimi to take with the object behind! Don't know what is it, but all I know is Ms Oscar's fav collection...Heh...

Fang Yuan... My ex-classmate!! Miss her lots!!! =)

Fang Yuan and Trina... =)

Another shot...

Another photo taken with Lee Ling; this time round, with Trina!!! (She was *ahem* lost the other day, when the 5 of us took with Lee Ling)

And lastly... this Photo belongs to none other than Ms Syamimi (Mimi)... She will know why!

Clue: It's NOT Nicole, that she wants to take, but is... *Ahem*, nvm!! Haha... =P

More Photos of Chingay...

2005-02-26T15:20:00.000+08:00

I thank God for the fine weather...

I thank God for that experience...

I thank God for the friends I have...

I thank God for everything...

Amen!!

Thank You Jesus... Thank You Lord... =)

Acknowledgement: Soo Ling - for these photos

Mimi (My Daugther) and Me...

Nur (My Mummy) and Me... Heh... =)

The group of us... Where are the rest? And... What am I doing? Heh!!

Another Shot...

Mimi and Sooling (The owner of this camara)... Thanks!

Part of the Pre-parade segment...

More of them...

A closer look...

The other side view of the Rooster...

Shout To The Lord All The Earth: Break out in Praise and Sing for Joy!!

Get updates from the new blog

Super sad... so pls... SMS me...

My updates on this unupdated boring blog...

PENG! Thank you so much! =)

GOD!!!!!!

You got to be strong... We are always here for you... *Hugs*

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God... What's your will?

You SHOULDN'T be sitting here...

The cup seems empty...

I thank God for these 19 years...

Back dated entry!

Lord, thank you so much... =)

Staying out late...

The Day, a year back...

What a Great Start of the Day! =)

We seems so far, but I really thank God for you... =)

The heavy heart I was having...

Restless... [rachel]

Don't talk to [rachel]

Lord, I need You...

MTV Filming! =)

Tic Tac Tone!

WHAT A GREAT DAY I/ WE HAD!

Crazy Happenings of the day!

Want to experience what's behind the scene? Read this!

My lousy Photoshop skills!

Rachel found herself a new BOYFRIEND?!

Rachel the busy girl? Ha! =)

The man whom I recalled...

Trusting... in Him

RELATIONSHIP is tough, but I know you all can do it!

What a day! Or rather, WHAT A SHOW!

My thoughts...

Festival of Praise @ Singapore Indoor Stadium 2005

I want to FLY!!

NPD Preview - 30th July 2005 (Saturday)

Bak Kut Teh! Haha... =)

Ha... My Family Business? Haha... ;)

Finally... I did it!!

Jesus, My Saviour, My Lord, My Provider...

Thank you Jesus, Thank you all... =)

Gosh... DS! Thanks Peng...

Little notes from Me to You...

NACLI Photos...

Sunday Times! Ha... Praise God... =)

Busy Rachel...

Trusting, having Faith and Prayers...

Sec 1 Peeps... - 21st June 2005 (Tuesday)

PCK Musical 10th - 20th June @ SIS

Fadlin's wedding... - 19th June 2005 (Sunday)

30 Hours Famine Camp @ Ngee Ann Polytechnic

It has been so long since...

Thank you all, you are Great joy to be with!! =)

Waiting...

In the Control Room, once again... =)

God, Strengthen Me...!!!

Thank you ****, Take care pple... =)

It's Production Time!!! =)

Why God Made Friends?

Take Time for Friendship

Round 4 of Meeting up... ;)

3rd Round of Meeting...

Theatre Examination, 7th May '05, 2.30pm

The Night/ Morning that I'll never forget...

Happy 19th Birthday, Berry...

Oh Rachel!!!???

Round 2 of meeting up...

This is the day that the Lord has made... I'll Rejoice and be glad in it... =)

New Additions to the Family... =)

The People's President...

I'm sick and tired of everything...God... where are you?

Lesson at Mr Colin's Workshop (Office)... Fun Day! [260405]

Good Morning!!!

WHERE ARE YOU???

and yes... he FINALLY called!!!

F.L.A.S.H

I know...

Packed with lots and lots of work…

You got to be strong... We are always here for you... Hugs